Pretending is a funny word. I pretend so much it doesn't feel like pretending. I am an amalgam of personalities. Displaying one is like choosing a shirt from the closet. The big question is who is the man behind the fashion get up. That's the fuzzy area where boredom prevents me from choosing a long term position to work from.
What I want is always changing, which seems to fuel my compulsive behavior. If I want something I know I should get it now to achieve satisfaction because tomorrow it won't hold the same thrill or joy. It's easy to be at peace when what I want is the smaller things in life, but the frustration of wanting grander things lead me to manipulate things/people to get what I want without long term planning.
Nothing seems to keep me happy very long either, I'm constantly in search of the next problem to solve, result to achieve, etc. The better you get at manipulating others the more potentially easy things are to get. However, some grand schemes cannot be achieved without sacrificing time and energy elsewhere. Basically you can't have it all, and that's what I think I truly what. ALL OF IT, AND NOW!
Well I'm quite curious. I've always felt a bit superior compared to most. I do enjoy a great mind game. I'm not disturbed by things most people are. I'm not sure I'm a through and through sociopath. I certainly don't need a doctor to tell me I'm different. Though the few I have been to told me I have impulse control issues.
I just want to put out what I feel and think and get a little input in return. I know so much about others and so little about myself. Observing others gives me a chance to compare.
Hello to every one out here, Am here to share the unexpected miracle that happened to me,My name is CONNORS BELLA , I live in London,UK , married to JORGE CONNORS. we got married for more than 11 years and have gotten two kids. thing were going well with us and we are always happy. until one day my husband started to behave in a way i could not understand, i was very confused by the way he treat me and the kids. later that month he did not come home again and he called me that he want a divorce, i asked him what have i done wrong to deserve this from him, all he was saying is that he want a divorce that he hate me and do not want to see me again in his life, i was mad and also frustrated do not know what to do,i was sick for more than 2 weeks because of the divorce. i love him so much he was everything to me without him my life is incomplete. i told my sister and she told me to contact a spell caster, i never believe in all this spell casting of a thing. i just want to try if something will come out of it. i contacted DR IMONAH for the return of my husband to me, they told me that my husband have been taken by another woman, that she cast a spell on him that is why he hate me and also want us to divorce. then they told me that they have to cast a spell on him that will make him return to me and the kids, they casted the spell and after 1 week my husband called me and he told me that i should forgive him, he started to apologize on phone and said that he still live me that he did not know what happen to him that he left me. it was the spell that he DR IMONAH casted on him that make him come back to me today,me and my family are now happy again today. thank you DR IMONAH for what you have done for me i would have been nothing today if not for your great spell. i want you my friends who are passing through all this kind of love problem of getting back their husband, wife , or ex boyfriend and girlfriend to contact DR IMONAH ,if you need his help you can contact him through his private mail:(drimonahspiritualtemple@yahoo.com) or you can call him through his phone number:(+2347010648910) today and you will see that your problem will be solved ..............
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ReplyDeletePretending is a funny word. I pretend so much it doesn't feel like pretending. I am an amalgam of personalities. Displaying one is like choosing a shirt from the closet. The big question is who is the man behind the fashion get up. That's the fuzzy area where boredom prevents me from choosing a long term position to work from.
What I want is always changing, which seems to fuel my compulsive behavior. If I want something I know I should get it now to achieve satisfaction because tomorrow it won't hold the same thrill or joy. It's easy to be at peace when what I want is the smaller things in life, but the frustration of wanting grander things lead me to manipulate things/people to get what I want without long term planning.
Nothing seems to keep me happy very long either, I'm constantly in search of the next problem to solve, result to achieve, etc. The better you get at manipulating others the more potentially easy things are to get. However, some grand schemes cannot be achieved without sacrificing time and energy elsewhere. Basically you can't have it all, and that's what I think I truly what. ALL OF IT, AND NOW!
Perhaps you should start your own blog about sociopathy; you seem to enjoy talking about yourself as much as M.E. does.
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ReplyDeleteWell I'm quite curious. I've always felt a bit superior compared to most. I do enjoy a great mind game. I'm not disturbed by things most people are. I'm not sure I'm a through and through sociopath. I certainly don't need a doctor to tell me I'm different. Though the few I have been to told me I have impulse control issues.
I just want to put out what I feel and think and get a little input in return. I know so much about others and so little about myself. Observing others gives me a chance to compare.
BTW, love the nickname Ishtar. Any kids? LOL
BTW, love the nickname Ishtar. Any kids? LOL
ReplyDeleteYeah I sell you one cheap. One dollah.
Ishtar,
ReplyDeleteNo, you have to pay me. I know what those little monsters are like.
Hello to every one out here, Am here to share the unexpected miracle that happened to me,My name is CONNORS BELLA , I live in London,UK , married to JORGE CONNORS. we got married for more than 11 years and have gotten two kids. thing were going well with us and we are always happy. until one day my husband started to behave in a way i could not understand, i was very confused by the way he treat me and the kids. later that month he did not come home again and he called me that he want a divorce, i asked him what have i done wrong to deserve this from him, all he was saying is that he want a divorce that he hate me and do not want to see me again in his life, i was mad and also frustrated do not know what to do,i was sick for more than 2 weeks because of the divorce. i love him so much he was everything to me without him my life is incomplete. i told my sister and she told me to contact a spell caster, i never believe in all this spell casting of a thing. i just want to try if something will come out of it. i contacted DR IMONAH for the return of my husband to me, they told me that my husband have been taken by another woman, that she cast a spell on him that is why he hate me and also want us to divorce. then they told me that they have to cast a spell on him that will make him return to me and the kids, they casted the spell and after 1 week my husband called me and he told me that i should forgive him, he started to apologize on phone and said that he still live me that he did not know what happen to him that he left me. it was the spell that he DR IMONAH casted on him that make him come back to me today,me and my family are now happy again today. thank you DR IMONAH for what you have done for me i would have been nothing today if not for your great spell. i want you my friends who are passing through all this kind of love problem of getting back their husband, wife , or ex boyfriend and girlfriend to contact DR IMONAH ,if you need his help you can contact him through his private mail:(drimonahspiritualtemple@yahoo.com) or you can call him through his phone number:(+2347010648910) today and you will see that your problem will be solved ..............
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