After years in His service, I was summoned to the Halls of the Holy. He was adorned in the purest white tunic and his skin was the highest shine of bronze. When he stood from his throne the world became very small and I was awed in his magnificent presence. It was not happiness or joy that greeted me. He was furious. He spoke not a word nor moved a muscle until it was all over.
From his throne emerged an ivory statue with the features of a woman. Her skin was pure ivory but moved like flesh, and her eyeless hairless body reflected the awesome majesty of the Almighty. In her left hand was a cage and within that cage was a golden serpent. She came close to me as she opened the cage and forced my mouth open. The serpent went down my throat and into my belly. The pain was immeasurable. I fell to my knees and vomited a thousand ebony worms and countless maggots. When it was over the golden serpent slithered out of my throat and the ivory woman went back into the throne.
I trembled as the Almighty spoke.
"Go now my child. You have been purged of the wickedness in your belly. Hold no hate and tell no lies to your brothers and sisters. You are my sword of righteousness. Fail me once more and it will be you who is purged."
I was cast from the heavens in an instant and sent crashing into the sea. A fisherman helped me into his boat and fed me what little food he had. I could smell the wickedness on him and the sins were without number. I wished to strike him down where he sat but he only showed me compassion and care. He should have known that his punishment from the heavens would come one day for what he had done. I told him as much as he examined his own intestines.
I got insulted this evening, some small unimportant stuff, nevertheless, I still feel bloodlust, normally this goes over after a couple of minutes, but it doesn't. I've been drinking for hours and don't want to go to sleep, I don't want the rush to end ...
"my nightly bloodlust has overflown into my days, I feel lethal on the verge of frenzy, I think my mask of sanity is about to slip".
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davidsocio01 said...
STOOOOOOOOp it Erin With your stupi shit, your a fucking stupid cunt, fucking BIIIIIIIIIIIITch, I would kIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIlll you stupid bitch, RHHHHHHHHHHHHH kILLL you bitch stupid stupid cunt I woiuld DRRRRRRRRRRink your blOOOOOOOOOOOOOOod October 7, 2011 1:39 AM
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fuck you eden, take some drugs and die bitch!!!!!!!!! October 7, 2011 1:46 AM
No my first fight will never be one, i want to stab a knife into the back so the blood thrashes out the mouth, fucking awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!! October 7, 2011 1:58 AM
Too bad I don't have the balls to even stand up to my parents. That's why I abandoned them. They controlled me too much and said I lived in sin. I will show them! I will kill someone and be famous like Bundy or Gacy! It'll be fucking awesome! Too bad I don't have the balls to do it. I'm such a coward.
David I just deleted my posts in the Forum and I am leaving. People are gonna laugh when I say this but I am gonna say it. I think you had a real connection with me. I had one with you,as stupid as that may sound. More than that, I think you felt God's love through me. I think your defenses are breaking down because of that. I don't hate you and never will.
David, check this one out. It's worse than the nick berg one imo, they try out a new method before they actually behead him. If it makes you feel any better, he's not a goodie, it's a gang member.
"He snapped at me in an extremely arrogant way because I asked for the opening hours of the bar as apparently I already asked him that question two days ago."
Wow, I could plot his murder for this. I can't fathom any disagreement, especially being raged at in front of others.
If you didn't think you were awesome, you couldn't sit around all day living off the hard work of others, nor could you con, rape or kill another person, of course non psychopaths do that too, but they aren't proud of it.
David doesnt sound very intelligent but he manages to survive more than half of his shit must be lies and half truths but in my opinion it seems like he has a good- survival instinct Hey david there are many things you could do to get back at him it doesnt have to involve physical violence but i dont see a reason to why you would hr probably despises you how does that make you feel?
Yes, they will think nothing of boasting about it. Sociopaths are self absorbed to the extreme, if you go into a sociopaths mind, you'll find a complete self focus and barely any time will be spent thinking of others.
I dont think they would be proud of the end product (kill, rape, con everything he said) but proud that they managed to do it and got away clean what do you fuck ups think?
Last time I checked you failed at that. You're completely see through Dave. Mabye you can fool a few retards out there but in here we've known what you are from day one.
There are two main motives that govern self-presentation. One is instrumental: we want to influence others and gain rewards (Schlenker 1980, pp. 92). There are three instrumental goals. The first is ingratiation, when we try to be happy and display our good qualities so that others will like us (Schlenker 1980, pp. 169). The second is intimidation, which is aggressively showing anger to get others to hear and obey us.[1] The third is supplication, when we try to be vulnerable and sad so people will help us and feel bad for us.
The second motive of self-presentation is expressive. We construct an image of ourselves to claim personal identity, and present ourselves in a manner that is consistent with that image.[3] If we feel like this is restricted, we exhibit reactance/be defiant. We try to assert our freedom against those who would seek to curtail our self-presentation expressiveness. A classic example is the idea of the "preacher’s daughter", whose suppressed personal identity and emotions cause an eventual backlash at her family and community.
without narcissism a person becomes completely self sacrificing, at the other end (pathological narcissism) the person has no clue how to empathize with the wishes of others and is completely self absorbed.
Superficial charm is a tactic used by many psychopaths to get their way. By looking good and acting nice on the surface, they hide their true personalities, which are often very selfish and uncaring, possibly even sadistic. The "charm" is entirely fake.
The serial killer Ted Bundy was a good example of someone with superficial charm. He looked good, and had great manners and social skills. He could act like the kind of guy girls wanted to take home to meet their parents. He used these "skills" to gain the trust of unsuspecting women, then lured them into his trap and killed them.
As I said before violent thoughts mean nothing. Everyone has them and I doubt there's one person alive who hasn't thought about killing another. If you were disgusted by the Nick Berg beheading video what makes you think you have lethal potential? I mean that's just the same as a tv show, I don't see why the average person would be affected. Plenty of people talk about what they think they could do but as soon as they see blood or death they lose their nerve. If you haven't physically hurt anybody by this point in your life then are you're just not the type. It really doesn't matter though. Why are you suddenly thinking about violence? Are the thhoughts directed at anyone in particular?
Sounds like David is falling apart. I guess that's what happends when you find out you aren't the aristocrat you thought you were. Instead he found out he was just a lonely homosexual whore who gets paid to do sexual favors for people. I can see how that would be a long fall and proalbably some why traumatizing to realize
You really need to grow some balls by standing up for yourself. You don't have to resort to physical violence, but you can still call people on their shit.
Really, whats the worst than can happen? If you do not start standing up for yourself, at this rate, you will off yourself in no time.
"Cutting someone's head of with a knife is probably one of the most extreme ways of killing someone. You can't compare that with stabbing a knife "
I don't see it that way. When it comes down to it, if you can stick a knife in somebody you're not going to be disgusted at the thought of cutting their head off. It's all about mindset. If you're a killer you're a killer. You don't know if you're capable of violence because you've never used it. It's as simple as that and I strongly doubt that you'll ever act on any of these thoughts.
By the way, as an empath, I've never entertained thoughts of killing anybody. I'm not saying that all empaths are like me, only that not all of us average people have thoughts of killing others.
Nah sweet cheeks, I wouldn't call that passive aggressive. I'd call that subtle-beating someone up isn't the only way of standing up for yourself, and neither is direct confrontation.
The list of sexual favours that you had to do for your ex. The one that he always had written out when you arrived. Remember? Oh and how you had to help the old twat in and out of the shower, up and down the stairs. Oh and how you thought about killing him many times when he was semi raping you but could never bring yourself to do it. And tell us all about the bullies at school as well. And the sex contracts.
"Cutting someone's head of with a knife is probably one of the most extreme ways of killing someone."
Really? You're either extremely lacking in imagination, or just not interested in it. Google 'scaphism' to begin with. Or 'necklacing'.
Or think about the execution/torture method that had people chained up to the ceiling with both legs. Then, two big men would come in with a two-man saw, and start sawing the poor bastard on half, starting at his groin. Now imagine the blade getting stuck on his hipbone (which wasn't all that uncommon).
Or you could make someone swallow two neodymium-iron-boron magnets with an interval of a couple of hours. They'd cause internal bleedings, because the magnets are attracted to one another, even through the walls of your intestines.
Or hydrofluoric acid; that's a 'nice' way to die too. :)
And then you deleted so fast it was like a gun shot on the way out. That comment was literally only up for a few minutes. What does that tell us? All that shit is good for a laugh which is partly why I brought it up. Not just to shame you. Taking a few beatings as a child is nothing compared to years spent suffering sexual abuse. You have to suffer to get the things you want. You have to do things you don't enjoy to get by while I leave the suffering to everyone else and go by laughing most of the time, not thinking about "throwing myself off the terrace". And all that pain was for nothing since you've been left with nothing, as well as a life that you don't enjoy.
"Yes I delete comments becaue a lot are incriminating"
But that one was only up for a few minutes. Nothing could have happened in that time. You also delete alot of comments that are in no way incriminating.
'Ching li' is nasty too. I actually found a picture of a guy who had been 'ching li'd'. And the breaking wheel seems a lot less nice, now that I've realized how the shattered limbs of the victim were folded around the cartwheel. And the sawing-thing is just called 'sawing', by the way.
Bamboo? Really? Still not very imaginative. And debatable how painful slowly being impaled actually is.
Slow torture is what you'd like to do? Trust me if you kill for pleasure you're not going to be afraid of cutting someone's head off. The fact that you were disgusted by the beheadin video tells me that while you may think about violence you're not prepared for the reality of it. These are all odball fantasies Dave.
I'm pointing out your realness because that's the most pathetic thing about you. And it's pretty fucking obvious to everyone else that you delete alot of your comments out of embarrassment. We know your name and location already so deleting shit doesn't make a difference.
Being beheaded is by far the worst way to die, all that torture crap is nothing compared to an up front beheading, the fact that you know you will be dead within a few minutes is what makes it worse.
I don't get those people who wait until they actually put them down and start sawing at their neck, at least try to make a quick sprint. getting shot is easier.
"who profoundly doesn't care about others and their opinions."
I don't think anyone believe's that but ok. It's pretty obvious what you are and I'm not talking abou the stuff you've told us. We've seen your core. I'll leave all the the nihilistic clap trap and discussions on morality down to you because I don't give a shit and I'm not even going to pretend to care. Think what you like about that.
First: this is were I' getting the majority of this stuff from. It's exactly what it reads on the tin: Nightmare Fuel, but also the High Octane-kind.
Well Sweetcheeks, the 'folding shattered limbs' gave me chills (the bad kind) when I imagined it. Same thing happened when I read about that (I forgot the name) Chinese breaking of feet-custom earlier today. Things certainly get to me, but it's less severe I guess. Those babies that are born without a brain look pretty funny, if you'd ask me. But the sawing thing? Not pleasant. Especially if you consider the fact that, due to hanging upside-down, the victim is conscious pretty much half of the way down.
"I don't get those people who wait until they actually put them down and start sawing at their neck, at least try to make a quick sprint. getting shot is easier."
You mean Anencephaly? Born without a head. Bleh! Due to neural tube defects and lack of folic acid in the diet of pregnant women. Pregnant women: eat your spinach.
Do you want to know something really disturbing? Something you could quite possibly try out right now?
Go stand in front of a mirror, and look yourself in the eye. Nothing strange, right? Try moving your head, but still keeping eye contact. It looks a bit funny, but still nothing out of the ordinary.
Now, and this is the disturbing part: look at your face with the corner of your eyes. So stop looking at yourself directly; look slightly to the left or right or something, and try to see your face. Your mirror image will still appear to be looking directly at you (the italics are there for dramatic effect). I got chills just typing this.
I know it's just an optical illusion, but it still makes me paranoid. As if your mirror-you is silently plotting your demise; waiting for you to look away long enough so he (or she) can get you in a choke hold. *shivers*
To be honest, yes (as far as the is this helpful question goes) Hearing back from these fine folks here has reminded me why I'm in this little pickle to begin with. Everybody in real life is only willing to present me with a diluted version of the truth. Here, UKan mis TNP medusa and Eden are all willing to be square with ms. They aren't telling me what I want to hear. They're telling me what they see. It doesn't bother them whether I am or am not being hurt by hearing it. This is infinitely more helpful than what anybody else has been able to provide, or the back and forth echos within my own head.
As per the pics, I wasn't gonna do it. But an anon outed me with a picture anyway, and it was one that cunt Mel posted on her dumb copycat blog. For vanities sake I decided if I was going to be "exposed" it would be on my own terms. Besides, a picture is only a picture.
It's funny to see the way your thought process work david. You post up a picture of your cock and because everyone here isn't rushing in to tell you how amazing your cock is they are the ones with a problem. I'm sure that is what must go through all these wierdos heads that are running around flashing people.
Mis, you taunt dave because he is a reflection of what you can't face. You took abuse as well, why don't you just admit that you have just as much value as Dave. You ditched your education to be a low-life. Your that guy that smokes weed and runs his illegal shit thinking he is a God, before getting busted. You are the dummy they put inside the cars to test. You drive into walls like a moron.
Was this cunt the one of whom you took her boyfriend and then told her about it without a care for her welfare? Is this the one who doesn't like you for some unknown reason haha
i find it odd that Erin has not posted here at all today and some random chick comes on trying to manipulate people for attention, and then randomly cracks on Erin despite being a new person.New people don't usually make jokes about the troll accounts.
Sweetcheecks seems like the HPD type. They lure you in with attention and pretend to like you. It's all a game tho, once they trap you they try and manipulate you and use you as a refill for their narcissistic supply.
She is trying to reach out to dave because she thinks that he is weak and he can be controlled.
I took whose boyfriend? This guy doesn't date fucking anybody let alone fucking Mel lol that is fucking stupid. Mel is a stupid worthless cunt who used me for my house and fucked me over endlessly. I don't give one flying shit that I developed feelings for the guy she was in love with. They weren't even together, they werent even ex's. Sorry, except not really at all. If I feel bad about anything, it was that i ever fell for the guy because I watched him use her as a sex toy for so long without even committing. I should have known better but I didn't even care. LOL
I think you like the abuse bluebird. Why don't you stop lieing to yourself. Nobody here can rescue you unless you are honest. Honesty pays in the end. That's how you get help. Don't repress yourself.
You are retarded if you think that I'm under some delusion of specialness. I know exactly what I mean to him, nothing. I am here to try and find out why I was so vulnerable to his enthrall. Learn what you speak of before running your mouth. I have never said I think I mean a damn thing to him-I'm not a sex toy, but I am a toy all the same ;)
@anon
Im hot steamy shit, and you are just a faceless shit
Oh, and I was "boasting" like being fucked over by a socio is so fucking awesome? No one here has ever given me props and I'm not here to get them, Jason. I'm here to learn, and that's what I've been doing. I am nothing if not honest with myself. If I wanted back pats I would have gone to fucking love fraud.
She doesnt know whats to come she will see things starting to change and drama wont do it any more it will get unstoppably boring he will get mad she will act like the little bitch she is but that wont cut it he will just stare with his evil eyes trying to hide his smile as she cries. I know because i can see into the future or im HIM.
Anyway, I was referring more to the Anons posting the same insults over and over again. You are usually relatively interesting, in my humble opinion, at least.
All the time. Most of it is pretty innocent (in my eyes) though. Low level gas lighting, 'trolling', acting ignorant to the content/context of whatever is going on, playing people against other people and general two-faced douche-baggery, and probably more that just don't come to mind right now. Sometimes it isn't innocent, and I guess I should be grateful that I'm always doing this shit, because when it's real, people aren't expecting it to be serious. When it's no laughing matter, the shock is probably far greater than being unexpectedly played with, you know?
I need a lot of spice in my life and mind games are just one flavor. I drive like a fucking maniac and go driving out on mountain passes for fun. I like taking people with me for those outings. You can tell they're enjoying it but are about to shit their pants any second. So far, my passenger seat has been shit-free though, thankfully.
How about you, Bluebird? Are you secretly coy and catty? Do you like to let the fox into the chicken cage for fun?
That is interesting. Socio boy kind of did something similar, too, with the mountain passes. He'd take me and Mel driving through the canyon roads and go extremely fast. I'd be in the back of the car burying my head against the seat. He is an excellent driver, it is true. But I always saw us careening off the face of a cliff in my mind's eye, I was always bracing myself for it.
Me? Well, I'd say probably the worst game I play on a regular basis is "see if I can get this vulnerable person to fall in love with me". I don't know if it's an entirely conscious game, though. I do it almost without thinking about it. There will be a guy that I know I'm not interested in at all, but I'll enchant him with my romance and poeticism and draw him in and show him things about himself he's never seen before. The more into me he gets, the more disgusted I become with him. By the time I finally succeed in seducing him completely, I can no longer stand the sight of him and shove him forcefully out of my life.
I have said this before, but I think socio boy is particularly attractive to me because I can't seduce him at all. It's like he sees right through me, which is pretty refreshing.
Coy? Catty? some would say falling for socio boy when mel loved him could be considered coy or catty, but for me at the time it felt perfectly righteous, and natural, like i was doing the best thing possible by honoring my genuine emotions, and there was nothing about love to be ashamed of. And why would I lie to her about it? I had nothing to hide! So I do not think that was coy or catty.
For the most part, I let people dig their own graves though, and stand idly on the sidelines, giving advice when asked for it, and letting people come to their own realizations.
Bluebird, if it isn't a "conscious" thing that you do -- this seducing -- then you are not aware of your manipulations? which makes you just weird or what? I mean I've heard that socios plan their seductions.
"When it's no laughing matter, the shock is probably far greater than being unexpectedly played with, you know?"
Being an empath myself, I will tell you this: Most people have trouble believing it. It seems, in their minds, more probable that they are simply paranoid and dreaming up the situation than you went out of your way simply to fuck with their head. By nature the majority of people are *fairly* trusting.
It's more like breathing. You can do it without conscious awareness, but when you focus your attention on it, you can control your breathe.
It's more like the type of person I am on auto-pilot. I sort of draw people toward loving me, if I can. When I go back and focus my attention on what I'm doing, I realize that I'm definitely seducing them, even though I'm not interested at all. but it's not like I'd been planning it, like I have a tactic.
What a load of bullshit. You're no black widow, you're someone who is afraid of real intimacy. You're young and you don't look like a hag. You could seduce half of American males by walking up to them and saying "Hi" the right way.
I've had two friends that liked to drive like maniacs. Both of them were overtly mental, not just silly. I don't know if they knew.
I don't know if I seem mental on the outside either. I try to hide my eccentricities and aggressiveness behind humor and hyperbolic, obviously conspicuous shenanigans. I don't hear "you're crazy" with any hint of genuine concern from anyone.
You're definitely a sideline spectator, Bluebird. That's where your grave lies.
It's true, I am afraid of real intimacy. I don't know why, though; it's not like I've had any traumatic experiences that would have made me this way.
I'm a third party, TNP, that's true. But I'm always in a position where I have everybody confiding in me. So sometimes even though I step behind the action, I have a lot of my own power, because I know the designs of all the players in the game. This gives me the ability, more often then not, to control the situation to some extent. So I have some power, too, you see.
Also, I like the spotlight. I've always been a public speaker. It doesn't make me nervous. I love a chance to talk in which I know that everybody is listening, that all eyes are on me. I've always been a performer, you know.
So maybe, yes, within my relationships with people, I seem to be the mutual friend of a boyfriend/girlfriend-something like that, but I also seem to be the only person that an intimate pair will accept as a third party member. I'm like the person a lot of couple would choose to have a threesome with.
blueird is afraid of intimacy ? then she feels like she is getting full from many many shallow connections? how does that make sense? Like substitute sugar doesn't put on calories, but you still crave the real thing?
I have intimacy, anon, I have many close friends that I am dysfunctionally intimate with
The problem is that it's not good-it's like, mutually destructive intimacy, social incestuousness, people getting off on screwing with eachother's heads and yet oh we all love each other in the end. Like me hooking up with one of socio boy's ex-toys, stuff like that all the time, we are all one big fucked up family
I am afraid of real intimacy-i.e, I love one person, they love me too. We have sex and don't screw around. We are committed; i.e mature adult love.
Erik Ericson-early adulthood-conflict, intimacy vs. isolation
I am failing at resolving this developmental conflict
You're reading too much into your situation. People confide in you for the same reason they confide in the Internet. You're safe. They're not worried about you. You're innocuous enough as far as impacting their life that they don't see you as a social threat. It's got nothing to do with respecting you or finding your optimal to confide in.
All of that power means nothing if you don't use it, and you don't. You fucked over one delusional cunt. Not exactly something to brag about.
I don't get it, Bluebird. Do you really think you're this amazing person, or are you afraid to show humility and honesty here? Either way, you're limiting yourself.
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ReplyDeleteFrom his throne emerged an ivory statue with the features of a woman. Her skin was pure ivory but moved like flesh, and her eyeless hairless body reflected the awesome majesty of the Almighty. In her left hand was a cage and within that cage was a golden serpent. She came close to me as she opened the cage and forced my mouth open. The serpent went down my throat and into my belly. The pain was immeasurable. I fell to my knees and vomited a thousand ebony worms and countless maggots. When it was over the golden serpent slithered out of my throat and the ivory woman went back into the throne.
I trembled as the Almighty spoke.
"Go now my child. You have been purged of the wickedness in your belly. Hold no hate and tell no lies to your brothers and sisters. You are my sword of righteousness. Fail me once more and it will be you who is purged."
I was cast from the heavens in an instant and sent crashing into the sea. A fisherman helped me into his boat and fed me what little food he had. I could smell the wickedness on him and the sins were without number. I wished to strike him down where he sat but he only showed me compassion and care. He should have known that his punishment from the heavens would come one day for what he had done. I told him as much as he examined his own intestines.
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ReplyDeleteI got insulted this evening, some small unimportant stuff, nevertheless, I still feel bloodlust, normally this goes over after a couple of minutes, but it doesn't. I've been drinking for hours and don't want to go to sleep, I don't want the rush to end ...
"my nightly bloodlust has overflown into my days, I feel lethal on the verge of frenzy, I think my mask of sanity is about to slip".
This isn't just some teenage chit chat like the most of the posts here, unfortenately ...
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STOOOOOOOOp it Erin With your stupi shit, your a fucking stupid cunt, fucking BIIIIIIIIIIIITch, I would kIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIlll you stupid bitch, RHHHHHHHHHHHHH kILLL you bitch stupid stupid cunt I woiuld DRRRRRRRRRRink your blOOOOOOOOOOOOOOod
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fuck you eden, take some drugs and die bitch!!!!!!!!!
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ReplyDeleteFFFFFFFFFFUKKInngg delete his stupid Erin, I'm gonna get you bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!
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ReplyDeleteFuck I can't be Ripley. I'll be Patrick Bateman! I already hate vagina so it's a win win right?
ReplyDeleteI will sound really scary and say I want to drink blood when I have already admitted that I have never been in a fight before.
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ReplyDeleteI'll get you Erin, I'll dig your grave bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!! DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
fucking bitchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
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ReplyDeleteNo my first fight will never be one, i want to stab a knife into the back so the blood thrashes out the mouth, fucking awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!
October 7, 2011 1:58 AM
Too bad I don't have the balls to even stand up to my parents. That's why I abandoned them. They controlled me too much and said I lived in sin. I will show them! I will kill someone and be famous like Bundy or Gacy! It'll be fucking awesome! Too bad I don't have the balls to do it. I'm such a coward.
ReplyDelete"fuck you eden, take some drugs and die bitch!!!!!!!!!"
ReplyDeleteI don't need to take drugs to enjoy watching you flip out, David. You're such a train wreck.
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ReplyDeleteIt's funny, because even when David deletes his comments (and he will), 'Delete This David' has made the contents un-deletable.
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ReplyDeleteAnd thank you for, again, showing everyone why you are such an unlikeable narcissistic bitch! :D
ReplyDeletePizza foe breakfast? You're such a risk taker... *shivers*
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ReplyDeleteSay, didn't your usernamr start with a capital 'D'?
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ReplyDeleteLet's hope you didn't send any angry emails while you were drunk.~
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ReplyDeleteI'll get you Erin, I'll dig your grave bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!! DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
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ReplyDeleteYou threatened people when your name and identity is known.
"No my first fight will never be one, i want to stab a knife into the back so the blood thrashes out the mouth, fucking awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!! "
ReplyDeleteHahahaha!
Just remember, go for the hair and don't forget to slap wildly. The faster and more exaggerate the slaps are, the better.
christ that performance wasn't me best one ...
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ReplyDeleteI just deleted my posts in the Forum and I am leaving.
People are gonna laugh when I say this but I am gonna say it.
I think you had a real connection with me.
I had one with you,as stupid as that may sound.
More than that, I think you felt God's love through me.
I think your defenses are breaking down because of that.
I don't hate you and never will.
Bye - waving -
ReplyDeleteI must say David that reading your comments makes me miss my old friend Keith. He was one hot mess of a drama queen but we had so much fun together.
ReplyDeleteSweetcheeks, ever been with another woman?
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ReplyDeleteDavid, check this one out. It's worse than the nick berg one imo, they try out a new method before they actually behead him. If it makes you feel any better, he's not a goodie, it's a gang member.
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ReplyDeleteYou get mad because someone inferior does not respond? interesting
ReplyDeleteplease develop
what do you usually think when something like that happens?
David, watch this
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"He snapped at me in an extremely arrogant way because I asked for the opening hours of the bar as apparently I already asked him that question two days ago."
ReplyDeleteWow, I could plot his murder for this. I can't fathom any disagreement, especially being raged at in front of others.
The least you can do to this prick, is to beat the shit out of him David.
ReplyDeleteAll sociopaths are narcissists.
ReplyDeleteHow so?
ReplyDeleteAggressive narcissism
ReplyDelete1. Glibness/superficial charm
2. Grandiose sense of self-worth = pathological narcissism
The pathological narcissism is what allows the psychopath to act the way he does, as he thinks he is a cut above the rest of "average people"
ReplyDeleteIf you didn't think you were awesome, you couldn't sit around all day living off the hard work of others, nor could you con, rape or kill another person, of course non psychopaths do that too, but they aren't proud of it.
ReplyDeleteDavid doesnt sound very intelligent but he manages to survive more than half of his shit must be lies and half truths but in my opinion it seems like he has a good- survival instinct
ReplyDeleteHey david there are many things you could do to get back at him it doesnt have to involve physical violence but i dont see a reason to why you would
hr probably despises you
how does that make you feel?
Are sociopaths proud of it?
ReplyDelete"Are sociopaths proud of it?"
ReplyDeleteYes, they will think nothing of boasting about it. Sociopaths are self absorbed to the extreme, if you go into a sociopaths mind, you'll find a complete self focus and barely any time will be spent thinking of others.
Are they born this way?
ReplyDeleteI dont think they would be proud of the end product (kill, rape, con everything he said) but proud that they managed to do it and got away clean
ReplyDeletewhat do you fuck ups think?
"Are they born this way?"
ReplyDeleteIt's largely genetic.
Where my cock lovers at??
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ReplyDelete"make you believe I'm an aristocrat"
ReplyDeleteLast time I checked you failed at that. You're completely see through Dave. Mabye you can fool a few retards out there but in here we've known what you are from day one.
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ReplyDeleteYou non violent liberals are pathetic.
ReplyDeleteI wasn't talking about you being a whore.
ReplyDeleteMedusa, no offense intended, but how do you manage to fit into society? Aren't you a goth? Do you wear all black clothes?
ReplyDeleteThen what?
ReplyDeletedavid gets no more cock
ReplyDeleteDavid has game, he knows what impression management is.
ReplyDeletewhy do you call yourself davidsocio when you are nothing more than a narcissist?
ReplyDeleteBorderlines are probably the worst in terms of impression management, narcs and socios are tied.
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ReplyDeleteDon't socios make good first impressions?
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ReplyDeleteThere are two main motives that govern self-presentation. One is instrumental: we want to influence others and gain rewards (Schlenker 1980, pp. 92). There are three instrumental goals. The first is ingratiation, when we try to be happy and display our good qualities so that others will like us (Schlenker 1980, pp. 169). The second is intimidation, which is aggressively showing anger to get others to hear and obey us.[1] The third is supplication, when we try to be vulnerable and sad so people will help us and feel bad for us.
ReplyDeleteThe second motive of self-presentation is expressive. We construct an image of ourselves to claim personal identity, and present ourselves in a manner that is consistent with that image.[3] If we feel like this is restricted, we exhibit reactance/be defiant. We try to assert our freedom against those who would seek to curtail our self-presentation expressiveness. A classic example is the idea of the "preacher’s daughter", whose suppressed personal identity and emotions cause an eventual backlash at her family and community.
without narcissism a person would be unattractive. narcissism is what makes a person desirable.
ReplyDeleteAnon 12:23
ReplyDeleteHow?
without narcissism a person becomes completely self sacrificing, at the other end (pathological narcissism) the person has no clue how to empathize with the wishes of others and is completely self absorbed.
ReplyDeleteAnon 12:25
ReplyDeleteThank you
Superficial charm is a tactic used by many psychopaths to get their way. By looking good and acting nice on the surface, they hide their true personalities, which are often very selfish and uncaring, possibly even sadistic. The "charm" is entirely fake.
ReplyDeleteThe serial killer Ted Bundy was a good example of someone with superficial charm. He looked good, and had great manners and social skills. He could act like the kind of guy girls wanted to take home to meet their parents. He used these "skills" to gain the trust of unsuspecting women, then lured them into his trap and killed them.
David
ReplyDeleteYou have really never been in a fight?
I talk to this person inside my head.
ReplyDeleteHe tells me im crazy i tell him to go fuck himself.
He laughs.
if this guy isn't a sociopath, i don't know who is
ReplyDeletehttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2IwIRNM5noY
How do the socios manage the superficial charm? Is it from being a mimic, only?
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ReplyDeleteAs a child, were you bullied often?
ReplyDeleteAlso, do you feel like you have a lot of built up anger from being treated poorly by others?
As I said before violent thoughts mean nothing. Everyone has them and I doubt there's one person alive who hasn't thought about killing another. If you were disgusted by the Nick Berg beheading video what makes you think you have lethal potential? I mean that's just the same as a tv show, I don't see why the average person would be affected. Plenty of people talk about what they think they could do but as soon as they see blood or death they lose their nerve. If you haven't physically hurt anybody by this point in your life then are you're just not the type. It really doesn't matter though. Why are you suddenly thinking about violence? Are the thhoughts directed at anyone in particular?
ReplyDelete"As a child, were you bullied often?"
ReplyDeleteYeah he was. He told us.
Sounds like David is falling apart. I guess that's what happends when you find out you aren't the aristocrat you thought you were. Instead he found out he was just a lonely homosexual whore who gets paid to do sexual favors for people. I can see how that would be a long fall and proalbably some why traumatizing to realize
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ReplyDeleteWell David there's only one way to find out
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ReplyDeleteDavid
ReplyDeleteYou really need to grow some balls by standing up for yourself. You don't have to resort to physical violence, but you can still call people on their shit.
Really, whats the worst than can happen? If you do not start standing up for yourself, at this rate, you will off yourself in no time.
Do you not feel worthy of respect?
"Cutting someone's head of with a knife is probably one of the most extreme ways of killing someone. You can't compare that with stabbing a knife "
ReplyDeleteI don't see it that way. When it comes down to it, if you can stick a knife in somebody you're not going to be disgusted at the thought of cutting their head off. It's all about mindset. If you're a killer you're a killer. You don't know if you're capable of violence because you've never used it. It's as simple as that and I strongly doubt that you'll ever act on any of these thoughts.
By the way, as an empath, I've never entertained thoughts of killing anybody. I'm not saying that all empaths are like me, only that not all of us average people have thoughts of killing others.
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ReplyDeleteThat's being passive aggressive David.
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ReplyDeleteNah sweet cheeks, I wouldn't call that passive aggressive. I'd call that subtle-beating someone up isn't the only way of standing up for yourself, and neither is direct confrontation.
ReplyDelete"By the way, as an empath, I've never entertained thoughts of killing anybody."
ReplyDeletePerhaps you haven't seriously considered it but I'm sure the thought has crossed your mind.
Are you going to tell sweetcheeks abot "the list" Dave, or should I?
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ReplyDeleteThe list of sexual favours that you had to do for your ex. The one that he always had written out when you arrived. Remember? Oh and how you had to help the old twat in and out of the shower, up and down the stairs. Oh and how you thought about killing him many times when he was semi raping you but could never bring yourself to do it. And tell us all about the bullies at school as well. And the sex contracts.
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ReplyDeleteSomething is fueling your rage David and that's why you have those murderous thoughts.
ReplyDeleteIf you were more secure, you wouldn't be set off so easily.
That's pretty disgusting david
ReplyDelete"Cutting someone's head of with a knife is probably one of the most extreme ways of killing someone."
ReplyDeleteReally? You're either extremely lacking in imagination, or just not interested in it. Google 'scaphism' to begin with. Or 'necklacing'.
Or think about the execution/torture method that had people chained up to the ceiling with both legs. Then, two big men would come in with a two-man saw, and start sawing the poor bastard on half, starting at his groin. Now imagine the blade getting stuck on his hipbone (which wasn't all that uncommon).
Or you could make someone swallow two neodymium-iron-boron magnets with an interval of a couple of hours. They'd cause internal bleedings, because the magnets are attracted to one another, even through the walls of your intestines.
Or hydrofluoric acid; that's a 'nice' way to die too. :)
"I've written it down voluntarily"
ReplyDeleteAnd then you deleted so fast it was like a gun shot on the way out. That comment was literally only up for a few minutes. What does that tell us? All that shit is good for a laugh which is partly why I brought it up. Not just to shame you. Taking a few beatings as a child is nothing compared to years spent suffering sexual abuse. You have to suffer to get the things you want. You have to do things you don't enjoy to get by while I leave the suffering to everyone else and go by laughing most of the time, not thinking about "throwing myself off the terrace". And all that pain was for nothing since you've been left with nothing, as well as a life that you don't enjoy.
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ReplyDelete"Yes I delete comments becaue a lot are incriminating"
ReplyDeleteBut that one was only up for a few minutes. Nothing could have happened in that time. You also delete alot of comments that are in no way incriminating.
'Ching li' is nasty too. I actually found a picture of a guy who had been 'ching li'd'. And the breaking wheel seems a lot less nice, now that I've realized how the shattered limbs of the victim were folded around the cartwheel. And the sawing-thing is just called 'sawing', by the way.
ReplyDeleteBamboo? Really? Still not very imaginative. And debatable how painful slowly being impaled actually is.
Slow torture is what you'd like to do? Trust me if you kill for pleasure you're not going to be afraid of cutting someone's head off. The fact that you were disgusted by the beheadin video tells me that while you may think about violence you're not prepared for the reality of it. These are all odball fantasies Dave.
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ReplyDelete@ Wheatley
ReplyDeleteseeing that doesn't bother you at all? i can't watch any of that.
A few weeks ago I accidentally cut in to my finger with a steak knife (through the finger nail) and almost passed out in shock.
I'm pointing out your realness because that's the most pathetic thing about you. And it's pretty fucking obvious to everyone else that you delete alot of your comments out of embarrassment. We know your name and location already so deleting shit doesn't make a difference.
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ReplyDeleteBeing beheaded is by far the worst way to die, all that torture crap is nothing compared to an up front beheading, the fact that you know you will be dead within a few minutes is what makes it worse.
ReplyDeleteI don't get those people who wait until they actually put them down and start sawing at their neck, at least try to make a quick sprint. getting shot is easier.
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ReplyDelete"who profoundly doesn't care about others and their opinions."
ReplyDeleteI don't think anyone believe's that but ok. It's pretty obvious what you are and I'm not talking abou the stuff you've told us. We've seen your core. I'll leave all the the nihilistic clap trap and discussions on morality down to you because I don't give a shit and I'm not even going to pretend to care. Think what you like about that.
First: this is were I' getting the majority of this stuff from. It's exactly what it reads on the tin: Nightmare Fuel, but also the High Octane-kind.
ReplyDeleteWell Sweetcheeks, the 'folding shattered limbs' gave me chills (the bad kind) when I imagined it. Same thing happened when I read about that (I forgot the name) Chinese breaking of feet-custom earlier today. Things certainly get to me, but it's less severe I guess. Those babies that are born without a brain look pretty funny, if you'd ask me. But the sawing thing? Not pleasant. Especially if you consider the fact that, due to hanging upside-down, the victim is conscious pretty much half of the way down.
"I don't get those people who wait until they actually put them down and start sawing at their neck, at least try to make a quick sprint. getting shot is easier."
ReplyDeleteAgreed.
@Wheatley
ReplyDeleteYou mean Anencephaly? Born without a head. Bleh! Due to neural tube defects and lack of folic acid in the diet of pregnant women. Pregnant women: eat your spinach.
That's what I was talking about. But don't you think the second picture on the wikipedia-article (under 'Signs and Symptoms') looks kinda cute?
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ReplyDelete.....sort of looks like a frog, if you ask me. It does look cute in a depressing sort of way.
Blue
ReplyDeleteYou are such a wanna be.
Bluebird is a goth, why are you superior sociopaths even conversing with her?
ReplyDeleteBluebird is just someone who will sell herself to belong to a group
ReplyDeleteWannabe is one word, actually.
ReplyDeleteDo you want to know something really disturbing? Something you could quite possibly try out right now?
Go stand in front of a mirror, and look yourself in the eye. Nothing strange, right? Try moving your head, but still keeping eye contact. It looks a bit funny, but still nothing out of the ordinary.
Now, and this is the disturbing part: look at your face with the corner of your eyes. So stop looking at yourself directly; look slightly to the left or right or something, and try to see your face. Your mirror image will still appear to be looking directly at you (the italics are there for dramatic effect). I got chills just typing this.
I know it's just an optical illusion, but it still makes me paranoid. As if your mirror-you is silently plotting your demise; waiting for you to look away long enough so he (or she) can get you in a choke hold. *shivers*
Wheatley go outside. There's a whole world out there
ReplyDeleteGoddammit Wheatley
ReplyDeleteYou are such a nerd
I am a goth wannabe trying to fit in with the group?
ReplyDeleteI haven't known a "goth" in what, like, 10 years? There are no "goths" anymore. LOL. I'm a vegan hippie "goth" now?
I "wannabe" just like you, anon. Jeez. Go get laid.
Blue
ReplyDeletethey are persistent little shits aren't they?
I see that David hasn't jumped yet. What a relief.
ReplyDeleteI'm sure the anons mostly are not really anons. I wonder who they are, too afraid to post under actual names.
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ReplyDeleteI'm a president of a fairly big nation, and quite giddy about it still - the first black president! But that's the reason I choose to remain anon.
ReplyDeleteBlue
ReplyDeleteDo you really feel better after "exposing" yourself here? By that I mean talking about your fears and worries etc.
Were you ever paranoid about posting your pictures on this blog?
Are the pictures dirty? I'm not bothering to look if they're not.
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ReplyDelete@sweet
ReplyDeleteTo be honest, yes (as far as the is this helpful question goes) Hearing back from these fine folks here has reminded me why I'm in this little pickle to begin with. Everybody in real life is only willing to present me with a diluted version of the truth. Here, UKan mis TNP medusa and Eden are all willing to be square with ms. They aren't telling me what I want to hear. They're telling me what they see. It doesn't bother them whether I am or am not being hurt by hearing it. This is infinitely more helpful than what anybody else has been able to provide, or the back and forth echos within my own head.
As per the pics, I wasn't gonna do it. But an anon outed me with a picture anyway, and it was one that cunt Mel posted on her dumb copycat blog. For vanities sake I decided if I was going to be "exposed" it would be on my own terms. Besides, a picture is only a picture.
It's funny to see the way your thought process work david. You post up a picture of your cock and because everyone here isn't rushing in to tell you how amazing your cock is they are the ones with a problem. I'm sure that is what must go through all these wierdos heads that are running around flashing people.
ReplyDeleteMis, you taunt dave because he is a reflection of what you can't face. You took abuse as well, why don't you just admit that you have just as much value as Dave. You ditched your education to be a low-life. Your that guy that smokes weed and runs his illegal shit thinking he is a God, before getting busted. You are the dummy they put inside the cars to test. You drive into walls like a moron.
ReplyDeleteWas this cunt the one of whom you took her boyfriend and then told her about it without a care for her welfare?
ReplyDeleteIs this the one who doesn't like you for some unknown reason haha
David
ReplyDeleteo_0 i can't believe you posted a picture of your cock on this blog in hopes that people would get excited by it.
Please tell me Erin never posted a picture of her vagina.
You have alot in common with erin sweetcheeks
ReplyDeleteHow?
ReplyDelete@Jason
ReplyDeleteHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
go fuck yourself
Erin had class. Sweetcheeks has ass hahaha
ReplyDeletei find it odd that Erin has not posted here at all today and some random chick comes on trying to manipulate people for attention, and then randomly cracks on Erin despite being a new person.New people don't usually make jokes about the troll accounts.
ReplyDeleteobvious stuff.
Both are attention whores.
ReplyDeleteThere are archives Jason that I suggest to read through. You can find all what happen to Erin for yourself.
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ReplyDeleteSweetcheeks just goes along with others.
ReplyDeleteClearly she is an ass kisser.
Sweetcheecks seems like the HPD type. They lure you in with attention and pretend to like you. It's all a game tho, once they trap you they try and manipulate you and use you as a refill for their narcissistic supply.
ReplyDeleteShe is trying to reach out to dave because she thinks that he is weak and he can be controlled.
Jason
ReplyDeletetry again. i want to see how truly retarded you are.
you can continue now...
hahaha Jason
ReplyDeleteThat bitch is fucking poor.
'you can continue now...'
ReplyDeleteAwww did I hurt da poor baby? Did I make it cry? You were all happy until you were called out.
sweetcheeks= retarded cunt hahaha
ReplyDeleteActually I am laughing my ass off. I want to hear all about me Jason.
ReplyDeletePlease continue...but this time go in depth.
'Actually I am laughing my ass off. I want to hear all about me Jason. '
ReplyDeleteYou are trying to prove yourself now. You just came here and you already got shitfaced. You can laugh all you want, nobody will care.
Clearly Jason, you are the smartest person here. In the 3 weeks I have been coming to this blog, not one person has called me out as HPD.
ReplyDeleteThere were all fooled, but you Jason, have provided me with a revelation that has shaken me to my core.
My life will never be the same again.
Any attention is better than none, huh sweetcheeks?
ReplyDeleteDoes your husband give you any attention?
sweetcheeks
ReplyDeleteYou have annoying personality disorder.
sweetcheeks is the one you want to strangle so you never have to hear her stupid mouth any more hahaha
ReplyDelete'There were all fooled, but you Jason, have provided me with a revelation that has shaken me to my core.
ReplyDeleteMy life will never be the same again. '
Now you are desperately scratching at the walls trying to make a dent somewhere. Not even Erin was this needy.
I can't wait till the one's she is trying to fit in with turn on her.
ReplyDeleteShe is just a victim of an NPD husband.
sweetcheeks makes fucking erin look like a superstar ha ha ha
ReplyDelete@anon
ReplyDeleteI took whose boyfriend? This guy doesn't date fucking anybody let alone fucking Mel lol that is fucking stupid. Mel is a stupid worthless cunt who used me for my house and fucked me over endlessly. I don't give one flying shit that I developed feelings for the guy she was in love with. They weren't even together, they werent even ex's. Sorry, except not really at all. If I feel bad about anything, it was that i ever fell for the guy because I watched him use her as a sex toy for so long without even committing. I should have known better but I didn't even care. LOL
You just replaced Mel as his sex toy.
ReplyDeleteAs much as you like to think you are special, you are just like any other female to him.
Anon 7;57
ReplyDeleteBluebird thinks she is such hot shit, when she is just plain shit.
I think you like the abuse bluebird. Why don't you stop lieing to yourself. Nobody here can rescue you unless you are honest. Honesty pays in the end. That's how you get help. Don't repress yourself.
ReplyDelete'I should have known better but I didn't even care. LOL '
ReplyDeleteYou don't care, yet you are bosting on here hoping for everyone to pat your back. It seems to have backfired.
who the fuck is blewBerd?
ReplyDelete@Jason
ReplyDeleteYou are retarded if you think that I'm under some delusion of specialness. I know exactly what I mean to him, nothing. I am here to try and find out why I was so vulnerable to his enthrall. Learn what you speak of before running your mouth. I have never said I think I mean a damn thing to him-I'm not a sex toy, but I am a toy all the same ;)
@anon
Im hot steamy shit, and you are just a faceless shit
Oh, and I was "boasting" like being fucked over by a socio is so fucking awesome? No one here has ever given me props and I'm not here to get them, Jason. I'm here to learn, and that's what I've been doing. I am nothing if not honest with myself. If I wanted back pats I would have gone to fucking love fraud.
ReplyDeleteYou must be pre-Jason, Bluebird. Just ignore him. He has strong sexual urges regarding Misanthrope and UKan. Total oddball.
ReplyDeletenotme, I will hit you up when I get a new sociopathy email up and running. If you have somewhere you hang, like haven's blog, hollar at me.
Medusa, where'd up you poof to last night? You totally left me hanging, you bitch! :p
She doesnt know whats to come she will see things starting to change and drama wont do it any more it will get unstoppably boring he will get mad she will act like the little bitch she is but that wont cut it he will just stare with his evil eyes trying to hide his smile as she cries.
ReplyDeleteI know because i can see into the future or im HIM.
@anon
ReplyDeleteWTF?? If he was that corny I don't think I would've ever been into him
bluebird = over emotional codependent
ReplyDeleteI was gonna say some stuff, but then I didn't.
ReplyDeleteBalls.
ReplyDeleteWhy are you all so boring and redundant tonight
ReplyDeletebtw Erin deleted all her posts. Haha.
Why don't you come up with something interesting to speak about instead of bitching about a lack of interesting things being said?
ReplyDeleteThanks.
Fine, tell me about games. Mind games. What do you like? Do you ever screw with people just to spice things up? TNP.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, I was referring more to the Anons posting the same insults over and over again. You are usually relatively interesting, in my humble opinion, at least.
ReplyDeleteAll the time. Most of it is pretty innocent (in my eyes) though. Low level gas lighting, 'trolling', acting ignorant to the content/context of whatever is going on, playing people against other people and general two-faced douche-baggery, and probably more that just don't come to mind right now. Sometimes it isn't innocent, and I guess I should be grateful that I'm always doing this shit, because when it's real, people aren't expecting it to be serious. When it's no laughing matter, the shock is probably far greater than being unexpectedly played with, you know?
ReplyDeleteI need a lot of spice in my life and mind games are just one flavor. I drive like a fucking maniac and go driving out on mountain passes for fun. I like taking people with me for those outings. You can tell they're enjoying it but are about to shit their pants any second. So far, my passenger seat has been shit-free though, thankfully.
How about you, Bluebird? Are you secretly coy and catty? Do you like to let the fox into the chicken cage for fun?
That is interesting. Socio boy kind of did something similar, too, with the mountain passes. He'd take me and Mel driving through the canyon roads and go extremely fast. I'd be in the back of the car burying my head against the seat. He is an excellent driver, it is true. But I always saw us careening off the face of a cliff in my mind's eye, I was always bracing myself for it.
ReplyDeleteMe? Well, I'd say probably the worst game I play on a regular basis is "see if I can get this vulnerable person to fall in love with me". I don't know if it's an entirely conscious game, though. I do it almost without thinking about it. There will be a guy that I know I'm not interested in at all, but I'll enchant him with my romance and poeticism and draw him in and show him things about himself he's never seen before. The more into me he gets, the more disgusted I become with him. By the time I finally succeed in seducing him completely, I can no longer stand the sight of him and shove him forcefully out of my life.
I have said this before, but I think socio boy is particularly attractive to me because I can't seduce him at all. It's like he sees right through me, which is pretty refreshing.
Coy? Catty? some would say falling for socio boy when mel loved him could be considered coy or catty, but for me at the time it felt perfectly righteous, and natural, like i was doing the best thing possible by honoring my genuine emotions, and there was nothing about love to be ashamed of. And why would I lie to her about it? I had nothing to hide! So I do not think that was coy or catty.
For the most part, I let people dig their own graves though, and stand idly on the sidelines, giving advice when asked for it, and letting people come to their own realizations.
Bluebird, if it isn't a "conscious" thing that you do -- this seducing -- then you are not aware of your manipulations? which makes you just weird or what? I mean I've heard that socios plan their seductions.
ReplyDelete"When it's no laughing matter, the shock is probably far greater than being unexpectedly played with, you know?"
ReplyDeleteBeing an empath myself, I will tell you this: Most people have trouble believing it. It seems, in their minds, more probable that they are simply paranoid and dreaming up the situation than you went out of your way simply to fuck with their head. By nature the majority of people are *fairly* trusting.
@anon
ReplyDeleteIt's more like breathing. You can do it without conscious awareness, but when you focus your attention on it, you can control your breathe.
It's more like the type of person I am on auto-pilot. I sort of draw people toward loving me, if I can. When I go back and focus my attention on what I'm doing, I realize that I'm definitely seducing them, even though I'm not interested at all. but it's not like I'd been planning it, like I have a tactic.
What a load of bullshit. You're no black widow, you're someone who is afraid of real intimacy. You're young and you don't look like a hag. You could seduce half of American males by walking up to them and saying "Hi" the right way.
ReplyDeleteI've had two friends that liked to drive like maniacs. Both of them were overtly mental, not just silly. I don't know if they knew.
I don't know if I seem mental on the outside either. I try to hide my eccentricities and aggressiveness behind humor and hyperbolic, obviously conspicuous shenanigans. I don't hear "you're crazy" with any hint of genuine concern from anyone.
You're definitely a sideline spectator, Bluebird. That's where your grave lies.
That's a neat habit, I guess,if you like to attract people..why do you think you do it, Bluebird?
ReplyDeleteIt's true, I am afraid of real intimacy. I don't know why, though; it's not like I've had any traumatic experiences that would have made me this way.
ReplyDeleteI'm a third party, TNP, that's true. But I'm always in a position where I have everybody confiding in me. So sometimes even though I step behind the action, I have a lot of my own power, because I know the designs of all the players in the game. This gives me the ability, more often then not, to control the situation to some extent. So I have some power, too, you see.
Also, I like the spotlight. I've always been a public speaker. It doesn't make me nervous. I love a chance to talk in which I know that everybody is listening, that all eyes are on me. I've always been a performer, you know.
So maybe, yes, within my relationships with people, I seem to be the mutual friend of a boyfriend/girlfriend-something like that, but I also seem to be the only person that an intimate pair will accept as a third party member. I'm like the person a lot of couple would choose to have a threesome with.
I'm like a catalyst, I cause change.
blueird is afraid of intimacy ? then she feels like she is getting full from many many shallow connections? how does that make sense? Like substitute sugar doesn't put on calories, but you still crave the real thing?
ReplyDeleteI have intimacy, anon, I have many close friends that I am dysfunctionally intimate with
ReplyDeleteThe problem is that it's not good-it's like, mutually destructive intimacy, social incestuousness, people getting off on screwing with eachother's heads and yet oh we all love each other in the end. Like me hooking up with one of socio boy's ex-toys, stuff like that all the time, we are all one big fucked up family
I am afraid of real intimacy-i.e, I love one person, they love me too. We have sex and don't screw around. We are committed; i.e mature adult love.
Erik Ericson-early adulthood-conflict, intimacy vs. isolation
I am failing at resolving this developmental conflict
as a third person, I guess you then have an easy exit.
ReplyDeleteYou're reading too much into your situation. People confide in you for the same reason they confide in the Internet. You're safe. They're not worried about you. You're innocuous enough as far as impacting their life that they don't see you as a social threat. It's got nothing to do with respecting you or finding your optimal to confide in.
ReplyDeleteAll of that power means nothing if you don't use it, and you don't. You fucked over one delusional cunt. Not exactly something to brag about.
I don't get it, Bluebird. Do you really think you're this amazing person, or are you afraid to show humility and honesty here? Either way, you're limiting yourself.
have you ever ever had the one on one committed thing, thing, bb?
ReplyDeleteTNP, why is it that you people think that ev on here who ever posts think they are great and amazing, hmm? hmmm? hmm????
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