“The universe we observe has precisely the properties we should expect if there is, at bottom, no design, no purpose, no evil, no good, nothing but blind, pitiless indifference.”
Why must we fake emotions in order to be accepted in society? Why must the game be played? People always look at me and ask whats wrong? Why do i have fake a smile just to avoid being asked that question. I feel like i deserve more but i know nobody owes me anything so how do i get it. Im stuck here cause of my medical meanwhile the whole world is flying by and i dont get a slice of the pie. It's not fair we didnt ask for this. The medical establishment has found a way to make us slaves to the system. Chained to my desk i feel i have no escape. I want to do so many things but cant. I can do so many things but dont. The things i do get questiond and the excellent things are forgoten. It's fun to be the anti-hero but when you have to be someones saivor its all business. In a lot of other country's i wouldnt have to worry about my wife's medical problems because the govenment takes care of it. But no. Its my responsibilty to make sure she's okay and im irrisponsible. There are lots of reason's a sociopath would have a wife. Power is the main one. Avoiding lonliness the other. Becarefull when building up the reality that everything is okay becaue wake up its not. Things suck and theres not a damn thing we can do about it except enjoy the moment. Because this moment is all we really have.
Is it a question of faking emotions to manage in society or is it just that people need to know how to work their way around things in order to make certain things happen for them. It's your attitude. Be who you are but don't put it on someone else. People question other people's moods because it makes them uncomfortable. Just remember you're not alone with all that. Many people are in the same boat. Not that it helps you but don't think the grass is greener somewhere else because it's not. And if it is then make your move or just accept what you have. We all want relationships to avoid loneliness, not just you, and for whatever other reasons we have. Yes it is your responsibility to take care of your wife so step up and deal with it. Believe it or not you will feel better about it because you will more likely help yourself more than you help her. That's a good thing and it feels good even if she’s very ill. But you wouldn't believe that until you did it. You have more power than you realize….you just won’t get the recognition for it.
"The things I do get questioned and the excellent things are forgotten"
That is the nature of fear and manipulation. We all go through it. Even the person who questions you goes through it.
Life isn't meaningless it just doesn't have the meaning people give it. It's not all wonderful but here we are and we breathe and live. Whatever purpose we serve by being here we have overlooked it. Enjoying the moment is the most spiritual thing we can do no matter sociopath or whatever. So hard to do when we are distracted by the idea that the tomorrow will be better...today is tomorrow.
Is it a question of faking emotions to manage in society or is it just that people need to know how to work their way around things in order to make certain things happen for them. It's your attitude. Be who you are but don't put it on someone else. People question other people's moods because it makes them uncomfortable. Just remember you're not alone with all that. Many people are in the same boat. Not that it helps you but don't think the grass is greener somewhere else because it's not. And if it is then make your move or just accept what you have. We all want relationships to avoid loneliness, not just you, and for whatever other reasons we have. Yes it is your responsibility to take care of your wife so step up and deal with it. Believe it or not you will feel better about it because you will more likely help yourself more than you help her. That's a good thing and it feels good even if she’s very ill. But you wouldn't believe that until you did it. You have more power than you realize….you just won’t get the recognition for it.
"The things I do get questioned and the excellent things are forgotten"
That is the nature of fear and manipulation. We all go through it. Even the person who questions you goes through it.
Life isn't meaningless it just doesn't have the meaning people give it. It's not all wonderful but here we are and we breathe and live. Whatever purpose we serve by being here we have overlooked it. Enjoying the moment is the most spiritual thing we can do no matter sociopath or whatever. So hard to do when we are distracted by the idea that the tomorrow will be better...today is tomorrow.
9-5 Path: The other question that's tickling, over and over, is "how are you?" When I was much more ignorant I always let people know they didn't have to ask me that lol. I thought they'd see convenience in it!
Just out of curiosity, what type of personality disorder inside the medical establishment do you fathom found the way to make us slaves to it's system? What type of person would rise to the top and allow such a change?
Stop complaining, 9-5. You don't sound like a path, you sound like a depressive bastard. Your not chained to your desk. If your wife is so much of a burden on you, then get the hell out of there and live your own life. If you want something, take it. you need to convince yourself that world owes you a living even if deep down you know it doesn't.
9-5... Hang in there. Tough times will pass soon. Your wife may not make it, you may figure out seeking some help from a church group or something. Find a support group familiar with her health problem. Talk to people around you about your problems in a way you believe some help will find its way to you. Don't think there is no help out there and you deserve suffering. You don't, believe that yourself first, and watch others believe later.
When people say what's wrong, they don't necessarily expect you to smile. How about telling them calmly what is wrong. I mean you have enough wrong going on with your wife. Maybe someone will send a helping hand. read some stuff on receiving, it's ok to receive.
maybe you could be fierce about your wife and think of the disease and the medical system as something that's attacking her. if someone attacked her, you would probably hurt them to stop it. you would probably do anything.
keeping the job and playing the game are a part of that. you could be at war with her illness every time you step out the door and get in the car and go out and pretend to be something you're not. remember that you're pretending: the job doesn't define who you are.
my experience: free time doesn't mean more time to achieve or accomplish or any of that--not with pd's (and i am one.) it's just more time to procrastinate. so you're probably losing out on a lot less than you think.
You can use having a sick wife to get shit. Also, you can publicize that you are taking care of her. All kinds of sympathy points, hero points, real person points. Use it.
i agree with Pythias. i would milk that cash cow for all its worth, when its gone you will probably have another girl wanting to marry you because of your big heart or whatever you have for taking care of her.
If you hate your job, then quit. Nine to five is for the birds. Frankly I hear just excuses from you on why your not siezing the day, like your sick wife. You say your slice of the pie is flying past you, well I don't know about you but I like pie. I want a piece of everyones pie. You would help your sick wife more if you were doing something that made you happier where you made more money. If my wife was sick I would hold up a few banks and get my medical bills paid off. You could use the extra money for savings so you have a backup plan. However, I can't see how you choose to work at a sucker job then complain about being a sucker.
My fucking best employee quit today so I don't want to hear shit about how you hate your job. Fucking employees always complain no matter what you do for them. This is the age of entitlement. Everyone wants to get big quickly, get rich quickly, and get popular quickly. Nobody thinks you have to earn it. Your complaining makes me angry. Get up you fucking knob. Sieze your opportunity.
I'm just going to ignore the pathetic sob story and stay on point.
Indifference does seem to be something that I hold for most issues. Perhaps indifference is why I am able to see each side of the coin and not care to choose which one I like more, in general. Maybe it's not some notion of higher intellect or understanding. I, of course, would prefer that, but I'm just being realistic.
UKan, is your ex employee moving on to a different piece of turf, starting up his own business, or leaving you for someone else?
i'm with you UKan. but i also did quit my job recently. then i worked 24/7 to find a new one. i've had jobs that i hated more where i didn't quit. you have to think strategically, not self-indulgently.
9-5 path, welcome to reality. i do hope your wife gets better and that you learn to appreciate what you have. if you want to escape the 9-5 life, figure out exactly what you want to do and form a plan that you can execute when your wife is better. without a plan, it's just pointless whining. so, what would make you happy?
the up side of a 9-5 life is that you can do whatever you want the rest of the time, whether it is playing around with hobbies or just wasting time in front of the t.v.. if you have your own business, it's 24/7 until you make it a success. by the way, ideas are cheap. the hard part is applying them. :)
"However, I can't see how you choose to work at a sucker job then complain about being a sucker."
Exactly! I don't understand why people choose to work jobs that they hate, and then have the cheek to complain about them. I hate working all together, but from my experience, I've learnt that there's always an easier way to make, or if need be take your money.
there are a lot more pay-offs to keeping the job (or finding something more interesting, as ukan said) then just up and quitting.
1) as others said, you can milk this for all it's worth.
2) having something to do ups the arousal level. you can actually accomplish more when your arousal level is up. nothing but free time means: low arousal level, sitting around. it's fun, but it's really not very exciting.
“The universe we observe has precisely the properties we should expect if there is, at bottom, no design, no purpose, no evil, no good, nothing but blind, pitiless indifference.”
is attributed to Richard Dawkins not Charles Darwin.
That makes more sense. I follow Richard Dawkins on FB, not because I'm atheist, but because I love all the science breakthroughs he posts about. I do agree that religion needs to stay out of our schools and government though.
the 9-5 path- did you actually think you would get sympathy from a website used by mostly sociopaths? that is hilarious, but ya i would use your wife's sickness or whatever she has to further your ambitions at work, it would probably be bad to quit in this economy. people at work love to hear how other people have it worse and listen to how you are morally conquering adversity. makes me giggle just saying it. if that approach is to screwed up for you then well....i could care less
First couple of episodes were slow at first, and I was skeptical of the inclusion of Lumen, but things are starting to develop. I'm curious how they're going to wrap things up in only 2 episodes, though. Perhaps another cliffhanger?
It did start out pretty weak. The cult murders weren't very interesting, either. Just brutal and stupid.
I'm thinking a cliff hanger as well, but it wouldn't be the first time Dex killed multiple people in one episode, and it probably won't be the last. I'm also thinking that Quinn well bloody his hands, but you never know. Depends how far the Narc guy goes with it.
On a similar note - Just read that Charles Manson was caught with a cell phone under his mattress. He'd made numerous calls, but no one knows if they were crime related. Hmmmm.
It did start out pretty weak. The cult murders weren't very interesting, either. Just brutal and stupid.
I'm thinking a cliff hanger as well, but it wouldn't be the first time Dex killed multiple people in one episode, and it probably won't be the last. I'm also thinking that Quinn well bloody his hands, but you never know. Depends how far the Narc guy goes with it.
I'm guessing one of the key characters is going to have to go; either Lumen, Quinn, or the detective. Also very curious to know Eugene's backstory, and how the writers interpret how he became the handsome upstanding citizen that he is today :) I wouldn't be at all surprised that he suffers from some sort of sexual dysfunction, hence his reluctance to participate.
Did you notice that Eugene is Zero Cool from Hackers? I didn't realize it the first episode that I saw him.
As for his sexuality, I can relate. I don't like sex very much, intercourse at least (though I adore being the one giving foreplay). I've never been lost in the moment, and when I see that they are, I can't help but look at them as lesser, like being slaves to their own body's desire, losing complete control in the hands of someone who will forever be a stranger to them, when they think otherwise. I can't understand being physically seduced. Such blatant manipulation angers me, almost as if they think I'm too weak or horny to resist. That only increases the loathing that I have for them.
Control and power, those are things that I find, stimulating. I'm not sure the image of my friends raping and killing someone would hit the spot, but to each their own, I guess. He probably finds it at least entertaining, to know that he's enabling them to be what their animal urges crave, something, like me, finds silly and deprecating.
I wonder what he finds more pleasurable, the rape, torture and murder of the women, or watching his friends do it under his supervision. My money is on the latter. The women are disposable. The men, he has kept around for decades.
I believe Notable's HP is near fully restored, though he'll need to consume more juniper berries to restore his Mana. In good time.
As for sex; never been a huge fan of it myself actually. I suppose I should credit the ritual beatings for dissociating such feelings of well-being/intimacy from physical contact, hence my suspicions of sexual dysfunction. Though, in Eugene's case, it may instead be sexual abuse, rather than the typical, more boring type I was subjected to :)
Control and power, those are things that I find, stimulating.
This, however, is one of the only things that I occasionally get a rise out of, but it also requires more effort than it's worth.
Yes to all counts, notme. I've never claimed to be less than contradictory, and I generally don't like people. Consistency is certainly not one of my virtues, as that would require me to be something I'm not even aware that is supposed to be me. I'm always in flux.
But how can I hate you, darling. You make my heart soar.
Anon, my health is fairly good.
notme, what's it like, getting lost in the moment? What's actually going on upstairs, if anything? I've always wanted to know. Also, besides the orgasm, is there something else that happens physically? Or are you just overwhelmed?
maybe the thing that bpd's and socio's (and maybe aspies too) have in common is that there's no set center around which to fix things. so everything is in flux with both.
things just get defined in any particular moment: what's true now may not feel (or even be) true ten minutes from now.
yes. i meant no insult. and since i'm suspecting more and more that i'm socio, i would be the last to say you aren't a person.
actually, i thought it more neutral, bordering on compliment.
Not insulted, just skeptical of categories. Not to mention, I consider myself a rather well-adjusted person despite the "issues" mentioned above, which I've managed to hide rather well. To most people I've met, I'm the reliable, empathetic, and understanding friend they often turn to for help/advice. Isn't that what really matters? :)
I've only ever been called out on once by someone who claimed that they could easily imagine me killing someone in cold blood. I found him amusingly perceptive. Everyone else laughed at the "apparent" absurdity of his statement, though.
only some women orgasm through sex. i'm not one of them.
whenever i have sex i feel like it's the first time. it's almost like i don't really know how it makes me feel, besides the physical aftermath where you feel all nice and relaxed.
i think 'getting lost in the moment' was an exaggeration, perhaps i don't get 'lost,' i just shut off to everything else.
i'm bad at talking about sex, i just like doing it. but, it's really not all that at the end of the day. it's not always worth it.
@no one: I was going to quote your post at 6:24, no one, but the entire goddamn thing applied to me.
@aspie: how...disappointing. I've wanted to ask in the past, but knew that asking would have made it obvious that I wasn't feeling what they were, thus putting me in jeopardy.
@Anon: things just get defined in any particular moment: what's true now may not feel (or even be) true ten minutes from now.
After sex, I'm usually anxious. The other person usually seems relaxed or worn out. I understand that people want to spend time together after the fact unless they have to go somewhere, but for me, I'd rather go out for a smoke/bite to eat than laze around in bed. Not to mention, if we were going at it for a while, all the damn sweat.
being repulsed by sweat and other bodily fluids exchanged during sexual relations is a signal that you are living too much in your head to enjoy sex or any other part of life, pretty much..
did you both hate being hugged as children? that's one reason why i'm not sure i'm fully socio, or may be bp with socio traits. i like holding hands and i craved hugs as a child. but otherwise, i don't care for vulnerability. it seems a waste of time and too dangerous besides.
someone chided me for not having orgasms with him. i would not allow someone that close.
notablepath, are you cognizant of the fact that your bed is filled with microscopic insects feeding on your dead flesh, as are your eyelids and all other parts of your body??
I actually find the idea of microscopic organisms living off feeding on my body to be entertaining, and "cool". The fact that my body is apparently a habitat for life, well, it puts things in perspective.
I don't like being touched, usually. The only people I like hugging are people that I'm close to. Random people or acquaintances hugging me feels like personal violation. I don't understand the hug obsession, at least I can't relate to it.
@notme: I like a good massage, giving and receiving.
@UKan: That would be convenient if I was. Then they at least wouldn't come back for more, or would be hesitant. I get too invested when it comes to the act, almost like it's a game that I have to win, and bust my ass to do so. I'm not saying I don't enjoy it, just, it's different for me. You yourself have said in the past that you require some level of sadism in the bedroom. Maybe that's what I've been missing out on.
You don't find sweaty beds disgusting? Are you indifferent or like it? Because most of the women I've been with don't like sweaty beds, either. I doubt that's coincidence.
My flat isn't very clean, actually. I only spruce things up when I have company.
eventually, but it totally depends on whose sweat it is. if it's someone i love, then lovely. otherwise, the sheets are in the washer pronto.
i read about RAD (reactive...disorder - i forget the middle word). they have skewed boundaries, so they can go right up to strangers and be all tactile etc. that's me. i love being touched.~
Notable, let's do the massage thing, but i don't do the oils. (too messy). just plain, caressing hands. mmm.
I find kissing to be nice. Not typically something I partake in with strangers and acquaintances, though. Something about the tenderness, I dunno. I find it a lot more intimate than sex. I just don't like the fact that it often leads to sex if it isn't brief.
I don't like the oils, either, notme.
I just don't like sweat. On my clothes, other people, whatever. I was with someone for a while who apparently like my scent, and my sweat. It boggled my mind. Then again, people get turned on by feet, so I guess sweat isn't a far cry.
@no one: Not one for spanking. That vid had be rolling though.
i don't like my own sweat, but my ex loved my scent. if i love someone, i love their sweat and everything else. people call it unhealthy idolisation, i call it love. aww.
the cat spanking is bizarre. i never did that with my cat. bless his heart. he died. :(
Notable, how old are you out of interest? i can't place you. also, how old do you think i am? no peeking at past comments.
After spending an excessive amount of time in the American South, saying things like darlin', dear and hun don't mean lovey dovey imagery to me. I have to be careful where I am now, as some women find it suggestive.
But that's rather poor context, as we are clearly lovers. <3
My actual precise age is apparently an object of inquiry among multiple people. I think I'll keep it that way, my dear.
i'm constantly saying babe, darling, sweetie to everyone. can't help myself. i use it sincerely, indifferently, or sarcastically.
but as you say, to you, it's always sincere.
my guess is thirties. hehe. i don't know. that's another thing. i think some people might have an unconventional take on ageing. on the vanity level it matters to me, but i sort of feel outside of time too. seriously, i do. weird huh.
sorry about my earlier comment, aspie. usually when there's a jab on this site, it's about establishing territory. but that doesn't seem to be the case with you. it was rude.
i think the mystery about people's age is fun sometimes. it's kind of the hard-to-pin-down quality that socio's have.
Hmmm... All that piss, sweat, spittle, body odours and bodily fluids being splashed all over here.. Marking the sexual territory night? The Brits are definitely leading here!
...and the rest here are all prudes image of that.. On a more serious note, doesn't the days of verbalizing almost anything sexual, particularly by the relevant that is now upon us, cloud things even more? Having to navigate through the expanding social minefield of fake or real sexual openness hasn't decreased the stigma but has instead internalized it.. making plausible deniability the valued and even essential survival skill for the lucky or unlucky individual in sexual interactions these days.
lss; To quote SexSpear; Saying too much or too little ~ that is the question..
..the not everybody is charmed by a socio image of Ukan losing his best exployee. Just out of curiousity Ukan, what's your smart employee turnover rate not counting those you have personal relations with or those who have no other choice?
Oh I missed a fun night! Oh well. I use "Darling" and the like all the time. It's part of my folksy charm.
I guess I'm sort of with TNP here. For me sex is about making the other person feel a connection to me, but I do feel superior at not being caught up in the hormones of it all. I prefer other acts to intercourse as well, so I can appreciate his enjoyment better.
The trait of not "getting" jokes or small talk is so goddamn spot on it leaves me reeling! My ex, the biggest sociopath the world has ever known, has that.
When I first met him, the first night we spent together, I was a bit troubled by his NOT getting anything I said. Whatever little joke I made or little off the cuff statement I made, he just was reading it all wrong. Like way over seriously. I figured it was because he was not comfortable with me yet. But now I see it entirely in a whole new light!
“The universe we observe has precisely the properties we should expect if there is, at bottom, no design, no purpose, no evil, no good, nothing but blind, pitiless indifference.” - This is indeed a great quote from Charles Darwin.
Is that really so? Then why is it that if the Earth were a mere 50miles closer to the Sun, or a mere 50 miles further from the Sun then no life could exist on it at all? If life is so common and evolved everywhere, where is the evidence? Where are the transitional fossils? Not a trace of evidence that one kind of animal can turn into another type of animal! So so called "proofs" of evolution have ALL been exposed as frauds! The transatory "animal" depictions of the human fetus have been exposed as fake. The black wings on the butterfly were glued on. Religious folk fanitical? The people who espouse evolution or JUST as fanitical! What are the calculated chances that life can come from death? !0 to the 415th billion power! The next time you throw a male cadaver on top of a female cadaver tell me what you end up with in 9 mounths. Not even a baby cadaver!
I was just wondering this morning how loving my sociopath is different than loving a computer simulation or an inanimate object. If course its completely different but not in every way compared to loving a NT who doesn't deconstruct every loving moment with some cold intention. I can love in a way that makes me feel not alone, not sure socio's get there anymore than blind people can appreciate a painting they are standing in front of. Maybe the helen keller treatment can bridge that separation and socios while believe that merging and connection is real even if they can't feel it. Perhaps flashes of feeling it too are possible? Am I getting this wrong?
I'll eat this one MelissaR. I lied anyway, the reference to "my sociopath" was a lie so sociopaths reading this might take it more seriously. Actually I should have taken much more time to write what I meant to write. This is bullshit and I know it. The intended ideas wasn't really, sorry if this insulted anyone. I'll stick to trolling.
On sweat....when women like the smell of a particular man's sweat, it's their endorphins that they are attracted to. This endorphin attraction is a signal (to women) they a potential mate has a compatible immune system. In order for mammals to produce the most healthy and strong offspring possible, both parents must have compatible immune systems...survival of the fittest.
P.S. Despite how much I like the smell of a man, clean sheets are very important!
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“The universe we observe has precisely the properties we should expect if there is, at bottom, no design, no purpose, no evil, no good, nothing but blind, pitiless indifference.”
Why must we fake emotions in order to be accepted in society? Why must the game be played? People always look at me and ask whats wrong? Why do i have fake a smile just to avoid being asked that question. I feel like i deserve more but i know nobody owes me anything so how do i get it. Im stuck here cause of my medical meanwhile the whole world is flying by and i dont get a slice of the pie. It's not fair we didnt ask for this. The medical establishment has found a way to make us slaves to the system. Chained to my desk i feel i have no escape. I want to do so many things but cant. I can do so many things but dont. The things i do get questiond and the excellent things are forgoten. It's fun to be the anti-hero but when you have to be someones saivor its all business. In a lot of other country's i wouldnt have to worry about my wife's medical problems because the govenment takes care of it. But no. Its my responsibilty to make sure she's okay and im irrisponsible. There are lots of reason's a sociopath would have a wife. Power is the main one. Avoiding lonliness the other. Becarefull when building up the reality that everything is okay becaue wake up its not. Things suck and theres not a damn thing we can do about it except enjoy the moment. Because this moment is all we really have.
ReplyDeleteCan a sociopath have a concept of "sucks"?
DeleteIs it a question of faking emotions to manage in society or is it just that people need to know how to work their way around things in order to make certain things happen for them. It's your attitude. Be who you are but don't put it on someone else. People question other people's moods because it makes them uncomfortable. Just remember you're not alone with all that. Many people are in the same boat. Not that it helps you but don't think the grass is greener somewhere else because it's not. And if it is then make your move or just accept what you have. We all want relationships to avoid loneliness, not just you, and for whatever other reasons we have. Yes it is your responsibility to take care of your wife so step up and deal with it. Believe it or not you will feel better about it because you will more likely help yourself more than you help her. That's a good thing and it feels good even if she’s very ill. But you wouldn't believe that until you did it. You have more power than you realize….you just won’t get the recognition for it.
ReplyDelete"The things I do get questioned and the excellent things are forgotten"
That is the nature of fear and manipulation. We all go through it. Even the person who questions you goes through it.
Life isn't meaningless it just doesn't have the meaning people give it. It's not all wonderful but here we are and we breathe and live. Whatever purpose we serve by being here we have overlooked it.
Enjoying the moment is the most spiritual thing we can do no matter sociopath or whatever. So hard to do when we are distracted by the idea that the tomorrow will be better...today is tomorrow.
Is it a question of faking emotions to manage in society or is it just that people need to know how to work their way around things in order to make certain things happen for them. It's your attitude. Be who you are but don't put it on someone else. People question other people's moods because it makes them uncomfortable. Just remember you're not alone with all that. Many people are in the same boat. Not that it helps you but don't think the grass is greener somewhere else because it's not. And if it is then make your move or just accept what you have. We all want relationships to avoid loneliness, not just you, and for whatever other reasons we have. Yes it is your responsibility to take care of your wife so step up and deal with it. Believe it or not you will feel better about it because you will more likely help yourself more than you help her. That's a good thing and it feels good even if she’s very ill. But you wouldn't believe that until you did it. You have more power than you realize….you just won’t get the recognition for it.
ReplyDelete"The things I do get questioned and the excellent things are forgotten"
That is the nature of fear and manipulation. We all go through it. Even the person who questions you goes through it.
Life isn't meaningless it just doesn't have the meaning people give it. It's not all wonderful but here we are and we breathe and live. Whatever purpose we serve by being here we have overlooked it.
Enjoying the moment is the most spiritual thing we can do no matter sociopath or whatever. So hard to do when we are distracted by the idea that the tomorrow will be better...today is tomorrow.
9-5 Path: The other question that's tickling, over and over, is "how are you?" When I was much more ignorant I always let people know they didn't have to ask me that lol. I thought they'd see convenience in it!
ReplyDeleteJust out of curiosity, what type of personality disorder inside the medical establishment do you fathom found the way to make us slaves to it's system? What type of person would rise to the top and allow such a change?
Hilarious, no?
How about hearing 'you look tired today.' What the fuck?
ReplyDeleteStop complaining, 9-5. You don't sound like a path, you sound like a depressive bastard. Your not chained to your desk. If your wife is so much of a burden on you, then get the hell out of there and live your own life. If you want something, take it. you need to convince yourself that world owes you a living even if deep down you know it doesn't.
ReplyDelete9-5... Hang in there. Tough times will pass soon. Your wife may not make it, you may figure out seeking some help from a church group or something. Find a support group familiar with her health problem. Talk to people around you about your problems in a way you believe some help will find its way to you. Don't think there is no help out there and you deserve suffering. You don't, believe that yourself first, and watch others believe later.
ReplyDeleteWhen people say what's wrong, they don't necessarily expect you to smile. How about telling them calmly what is wrong. I mean you have enough wrong going on with your wife. Maybe someone will send a helping hand. read some stuff on receiving, it's ok to receive.
ReplyDeletemaybe you could be fierce about your wife and think of the disease and the medical system as something that's attacking her. if someone attacked her, you would probably hurt them to stop it. you would probably do anything.
ReplyDeletekeeping the job and playing the game are a part of that. you could be at war with her illness every time you step out the door and get in the car and go out and pretend to be something you're not. remember that you're pretending: the job doesn't define who you are.
my experience: free time doesn't mean more time to achieve or accomplish or any of that--not with pd's (and i am one.) it's just more time to procrastinate.
so you're probably losing out on a lot less than you think.
You can use having a sick wife to get shit. Also, you can publicize that you are taking care of her. All kinds of sympathy points, hero points, real person points. Use it.
ReplyDeletei agree with Pythias. i would milk that cash cow for all its worth, when its gone you will probably have another girl wanting to marry you because of your big heart or whatever you have for taking care of her.
ReplyDeletebig something else... how exciting,,,
ReplyDeleteIf you hate your job, then quit. Nine to five is for the birds. Frankly I hear just excuses from you on why your not siezing the day, like your sick wife. You say your slice of the pie is flying past you, well I don't know about you but I like pie. I want a piece of everyones pie. You would help your sick wife more if you were doing something that made you happier where you made more money. If my wife was sick I would hold up a few banks and get my medical bills paid off. You could use the extra money for savings so you have a backup plan. However, I can't see how you choose to work at a sucker job then complain about being a sucker.
ReplyDeleteMy fucking best employee quit today so I don't want to hear shit about how you hate your job. Fucking employees always complain no matter what you do for them. This is the age of entitlement. Everyone wants to get big quickly, get rich quickly, and get popular quickly. Nobody thinks you have to earn it. Your complaining makes me angry. Get up you fucking knob. Sieze your opportunity.
ReplyDeleteI'm just going to ignore the pathetic sob story and stay on point.
ReplyDeleteIndifference does seem to be something that I hold for most issues. Perhaps indifference is why I am able to see each side of the coin and not care to choose which one I like more, in general. Maybe it's not some notion of higher intellect or understanding. I, of course, would prefer that, but I'm just being realistic.
UKan, is your ex employee moving on to a different piece of turf, starting up his own business, or leaving you for someone else?
i'm with you UKan. but i also did quit my job recently. then i worked 24/7 to find a new one. i've had jobs that i hated more where i didn't quit. you have to think strategically, not self-indulgently.
ReplyDelete9-5 path, welcome to reality. i do hope your wife gets better and that you learn to appreciate what you have. if you want to escape the 9-5 life, figure out exactly what you want to do and form a plan that you can execute when your wife is better. without a plan, it's just pointless whining. so, what would make you happy?
the up side of a 9-5 life is that you can do whatever you want the rest of the time, whether it is playing around with hobbies or just wasting time in front of the t.v.. if you have your own business, it's 24/7 until you make it a success. by the way, ideas are cheap. the hard part is applying them. :)
"However, I can't see how you choose to work at a sucker job then complain about being a sucker."
ReplyDeleteExactly! I don't understand why people choose to work jobs that they hate, and then have the cheek to complain about them. I hate working all together, but from my experience, I've learnt that there's always an easier way to make, or if need be take your money.
there are a lot more pay-offs to keeping the job (or finding something more interesting, as ukan said) then just up and quitting.
ReplyDelete1) as others said, you can milk this for all it's worth.
2) having something to do ups the arousal level. you can actually accomplish more when your arousal level is up. nothing but free time means: low arousal level, sitting around. it's fun, but it's really not very exciting.
3) your wife won't leave you.
4) again: you can use this for all it's worth.
good luck. :)
This quote:
ReplyDelete“The universe we observe has precisely the properties we should expect if there is, at bottom, no design, no purpose, no evil, no good, nothing but blind, pitiless indifference.”
is attributed to Richard Dawkins not Charles Darwin.
That makes more sense. I follow Richard Dawkins on FB, not because I'm atheist, but because I love all the science breakthroughs he posts about. I do agree that religion needs to stay out of our schools and government though.
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Thanks, Red Shirt Kid.
ReplyDeletethe 9-5 path- did you actually think you would get sympathy from a website used by mostly sociopaths? that is hilarious, but ya i would use your wife's sickness or whatever she has to further your ambitions at work, it would probably be bad to quit in this economy. people at work love to hear how other people have it worse and listen to how you are morally conquering adversity. makes me giggle just saying it. if that approach is to screwed up for you then well....i could care less
ReplyDeleteThis "9-5 path" is all over the place.
ReplyDeleteIf you want something, take it.
ReplyDeleteBeen taking tips from Jordan Chase, I see.
I'm really enjoying this season of Dexter, no one. How about you?
ReplyDeleteBut seriously, take it. RAWR!
First couple of episodes were slow at first, and I was skeptical of the inclusion of Lumen, but things are starting to develop. I'm curious how they're going to wrap things up in only 2 episodes, though. Perhaps another cliffhanger?
ReplyDeleteThats weird. I watch Dexter but I've only seen up to season 4. Is this the 5th season?
ReplyDeleteYes. Catch up, slacker.
ReplyDeleteTAKE IT!
It did start out pretty weak. The cult murders weren't very interesting, either. Just brutal and stupid.
I'm thinking a cliff hanger as well, but it wouldn't be the first time Dex killed multiple people in one episode, and it probably won't be the last. I'm also thinking that Quinn well bloody his hands, but you never know. Depends how far the Narc guy goes with it.
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ReplyDeletetake it!
ReplyDeleteLife's a bitch, then you die.
ReplyDeleteOn a similar note - Just read that Charles Manson was caught with a cell phone under his mattress. He'd made numerous calls, but no one knows if they were crime related. Hmmmm.
ReplyDelete'The higher a monkey climbs, the more you see of its behind.'
ReplyDelete"I'm thinking a cliff hanger as well, but it wouldn't be the first time Dex killed multiple people in one episode, and it probably won't be the last."
ReplyDeleteThis confuses me.
Thanks for the vague comment, aspie. Enjoy your confusion.
ReplyDeleteIt did start out pretty weak. The cult murders weren't very interesting, either. Just brutal and stupid.
ReplyDeleteI'm thinking a cliff hanger as well, but it wouldn't be the first time Dex killed multiple people in one episode, and it probably won't be the last. I'm also thinking that Quinn well bloody his hands, but you never know. Depends how far the Narc guy goes with it.
I'm guessing one of the key characters is going to have to go; either Lumen, Quinn, or the detective. Also very curious to know Eugene's backstory, and how the writers interpret how he became the handsome upstanding citizen that he is today :) I wouldn't be at all surprised that he suffers from some sort of sexual dysfunction, hence his reluctance to participate.
Did you notice that Eugene is Zero Cool from Hackers? I didn't realize it the first episode that I saw him.
ReplyDeleteAs for his sexuality, I can relate. I don't like sex very much, intercourse at least (though I adore being the one giving foreplay). I've never been lost in the moment, and when I see that they are, I can't help but look at them as lesser, like being slaves to their own body's desire, losing complete control in the hands of someone who will forever be a stranger to them, when they think otherwise. I can't understand being physically seduced. Such blatant manipulation angers me, almost as if they think I'm too weak or horny to resist. That only increases the loathing that I have for them.
Control and power, those are things that I find, stimulating. I'm not sure the image of my friends raping and killing someone would hit the spot, but to each their own, I guess. He probably finds it at least entertaining, to know that he's enabling them to be what their animal urges crave, something, like me, finds silly and deprecating.
I wonder what he finds more pleasurable, the rape, torture and murder of the women, or watching his friends do it under his supervision. My money is on the latter. The women are disposable. The men, he has kept around for decades.
What's your analysis, no one?
how is your health notablepath?
ReplyDeleteWhich health, and why, Anonymous?
ReplyDeletelol! that was not me.
ReplyDelete--another anon
TheNotable'Path said...
ReplyDelete"Control and power, those are things that I find, stimulating."
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notablepath you say what people say when they have erectile dysfunction..
ReplyDeleteI believe Notable's HP is near fully restored, though he'll need to consume more juniper berries to restore his Mana. In good time.
ReplyDeleteAs for sex; never been a huge fan of it myself actually. I suppose I should credit the ritual beatings for dissociating such feelings of well-being/intimacy from physical contact, hence my suspicions of sexual dysfunction. Though, in Eugene's case, it may instead be sexual abuse, rather than the typical, more boring type I was subjected to :)
Control and power, those are things that I find, stimulating.
This, however, is one of the only things that I occasionally get a rise out of, but it also requires more effort than it's worth.
so Notable, you love giving foreplay but you hate when someone loses themself in the moment?
ReplyDeleteLol, contradiction much?
you want to control the person's level of desire but hate them when they submit?
you hate people. :)
who knew, no one? i would not have suspected you were a socio (or had tendencies in that direction.) it's good impression management.
ReplyDeletenotablepath is a vascillator..
ReplyDeletenotablepath you say what people say when they have erectile dysfunction..
ReplyDeleteAnd most erectile problems are psycological.
i'm the worst vascillator.
ReplyDeletemaybe Notable is a beeper?~
who knew, no one? i would not have suspected you were a socio (or had tendencies in that direction.) it's good impression management.
ReplyDeleteI'm a person, same as you are, perhaps with a few abnormalities here and there. I wouldn't go as far as to label myself anything.
erectile dysfunction is often times a secondary symptom of disease within the body..
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ReplyDeleteyes. i meant no insult. and since i'm suspecting more and more that i'm socio, i would be the last to say you aren't a person.
ReplyDeleteactually, i thought it more neutral, bordering on compliment.
Yes to all counts, notme. I've never claimed to be less than contradictory, and I generally don't like people. Consistency is certainly not one of my virtues, as that would require me to be something I'm not even aware that is supposed to be me. I'm always in flux.
ReplyDeleteBut how can I hate you, darling. You make my heart soar.
Anon, my health is fairly good.
notme, what's it like, getting lost in the moment? What's actually going on upstairs, if anything? I've always wanted to know. Also, besides the orgasm, is there something else that happens physically? Or are you just overwhelmed?
it's all a build up and release into full flight orgasm
ReplyDeletemaybe the thing that bpd's and socio's (and maybe aspies too) have in common is that there's no set center around which to fix things. so everything is in flux with both.
ReplyDeletethings just get defined in any particular moment: what's true now may not feel (or even be) true ten minutes from now.
yes. i meant no insult. and since i'm suspecting more and more that i'm socio, i would be the last to say you aren't a person.
ReplyDeleteactually, i thought it more neutral, bordering on compliment.
Not insulted, just skeptical of categories. Not to mention, I consider myself a rather well-adjusted person despite the "issues" mentioned above, which I've managed to hide rather well. To most people I've met, I'm the reliable, empathetic, and understanding friend they often turn to for help/advice. Isn't that what really matters? :)
I've only ever been called out on once by someone who claimed that they could easily imagine me killing someone in cold blood. I found him amusingly perceptive. Everyone else laughed at the "apparent" absurdity of his statement, though.
only some women orgasm through sex. i'm not one of them.
ReplyDeletewhenever i have sex i feel like it's the first time.
it's almost like i don't really know how it makes me feel, besides the physical aftermath where you feel all nice and relaxed.
i think 'getting lost in the moment' was an exaggeration, perhaps i don't get 'lost,' i just shut off to everything else.
i'm bad at talking about sex, i just like doing it. but, it's really not all that at the end of the day. it's not always worth it.
Anon 6.20, yes i agree.
@no one: I was going to quote your post at 6:24, no one, but the entire goddamn thing applied to me.
ReplyDelete@aspie: how...disappointing. I've wanted to ask in the past, but knew that asking would have made it obvious that I wasn't feeling what they were, thus putting me in jeopardy.
@Anon: things just get defined in any particular moment: what's true now may not feel (or even be) true ten minutes from now.
Precisely.
@ no one: good for you, that they laughed. :D
ReplyDeletei'm skeptical of categories too--but only on alternate days.
@notme
ReplyDeleteyou say you feel the "aftermath" of sex ... nice and relaxed?
what is it based on if you are not orgasming?
After sex, I'm usually anxious. The other person usually seems relaxed or worn out. I understand that people want to spend time together after the fact unless they have to go somewhere, but for me, I'd rather go out for a smoke/bite to eat than laze around in bed. Not to mention, if we were going at it for a while, all the damn sweat.
ReplyDeleteNot to mention, if we were going at it for a while, all the damn sweat.
ReplyDeleteNever was one for the post-cuddle. The sweat is most unpleasant--also why I hate holding hands.
Holding hands provides almost zero physical stimulation, causes sweaty hands, and can be awkward depending on the other person's height.
ReplyDeleteSweaty beds disgust me, even if I'm laying on top of them with the comforter, I know that filth is below me.
being repulsed by sweat and other bodily fluids exchanged during sexual relations is a signal that you are living too much in your head to enjoy sex or any other part of life, pretty much..
ReplyDeleteBunch of clean freaks, you are. Orifice penetration, fine, but god forbid you get a little salty water on you.~
ReplyDeletedid you both hate being hugged as children? that's one reason why i'm not sure i'm fully socio, or may be bp with socio traits. i like holding hands and i craved hugs as a child. but otherwise, i don't care for vulnerability.
ReplyDeleteit seems a waste of time and too dangerous besides.
someone chided me for not having orgasms with him. i would not allow someone that close.
notablepath, are you cognizant of the fact that your bed is filled with microscopic insects feeding on your dead flesh, as are your eyelids and all other parts of your body??
ReplyDeleteaauuugh!
ReplyDeleteYou're just embarrassed at being the dirty little boy that you are, Postmodern.~
ReplyDeleteI generally dislike being touched. The sensation, rather than being comforting, is instead abrasive. Also, hugs were frowned upon in my family.
Lol, Yay! for sweat and other bodily fluids that momentarily wash away the microscopic critters!
ReplyDeleteDirty as you like, no one. ;)
ReplyDeleteI don't think you'd mind my touch.
i think i'll go do my laundry. (re: bugs, not you NP)
ReplyDeleteAspie: general tiredness. i can orgasm, i just forget quite quickly that i have.~
ReplyDeleteboyfriends tend to complain to me that i don't want to cuddle afterwards. and sweat is a pain.
You people are like old rich people. You must be a bore in bed.
ReplyDeletei love sex. it's the end of the world for me most times
ReplyDeletei often prefer a good massage to sex. i love being massaged and apparently give brilliant ones myself.
ReplyDeleteIs that a challenge, Ukan?
ReplyDeleteI don't think you'd mind my touch.
How about a sociopathworld meet 'n greet mass orgy to test out your hypothesis?
I'll bring the Lysol and Bleach :)
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ReplyDeleteI actually find the idea of microscopic organisms living off feeding on my body to be entertaining, and "cool". The fact that my body is apparently a habitat for life, well, it puts things in perspective.
ReplyDeleteI don't like being touched, usually. The only people I like hugging are people that I'm close to. Random people or acquaintances hugging me feels like personal violation. I don't understand the hug obsession, at least I can't relate to it.
@notme: I like a good massage, giving and receiving.
@UKan: That would be convenient if I was. Then they at least wouldn't come back for more, or would be hesitant. I get too invested when it comes to the act, almost like it's a game that I have to win, and bust my ass to do so. I'm not saying I don't enjoy it, just, it's different for me. You yourself have said in the past that you require some level of sadism in the bedroom. Maybe that's what I've been missing out on.
CAPTCHA was fateme. Go figure.
'Sweaty beds disgust me, even if I'm laying on top of them with the comforter, I know that filth is below me.'
ReplyDeleteyou make me chuckle Notable. OCD?
i expect you don't like the 'filth' since you can't forget your surroundings.
the price of being a sex machine...~
fisto!
someone on youtube commented today,'WHAT THE FUCK DOES LMAO MEAN?' er, behind the times comes to mind.
You don't find sweaty beds disgusting? Are you indifferent or like it? Because most of the women I've been with don't like sweaty beds, either. I doubt that's coincidence.
ReplyDeleteMy flat isn't very clean, actually. I only spruce things up when I have company.
You yourself have said in the past that you require some level of sadism in the bedroom. Maybe that's what I've been missing out on.
ReplyDeleteSomething like this perhaps?
eventually, but it totally depends on whose sweat it is. if it's someone i love, then lovely. otherwise, the sheets are in the washer pronto.
ReplyDeletei read about RAD (reactive...disorder - i forget the middle word). they have skewed boundaries, so they can go right up to strangers and be all tactile etc. that's me. i love being touched.~
Notable, let's do the massage thing, but i don't do the oils. (too messy). just plain, caressing hands. mmm.
I love kissing. When the kissing is going well, I just know whatever comes after is likely to be just as good.
ReplyDeleteNot to give the impression that i do this often.
agreed aspie. i was shocked to learn that some people truly suck at kissing. then i met my kissing doppelganger...
ReplyDeleteSheesh! Sweaty bodies and kissing doppelgangers! This is all bringing back too many memories and causing me too much sadness tonight. I have to go.
ReplyDeleteI find kissing to be nice. Not typically something I partake in with strangers and acquaintances, though. Something about the tenderness, I dunno. I find it a lot more intimate than sex. I just don't like the fact that it often leads to sex if it isn't brief.
ReplyDeleteI don't like the oils, either, notme.
I just don't like sweat. On my clothes, other people, whatever. I was with someone for a while who apparently like my scent, and my sweat. It boggled my mind. Then again, people get turned on by feet, so I guess sweat isn't a far cry.
@no one: Not one for spanking. That vid had be rolling though.
Who doesn't love this?
ReplyDeletei don't like my own sweat, but my ex loved my scent. if i love someone, i love their sweat and everything else. people call it unhealthy idolisation, i call it love. aww.
ReplyDeletethe cat spanking is bizarre. i never did that with my cat. bless his heart. he died. :(
Notable, how old are you out of interest? i can't place you.
also, how old do you think i am? no peeking at past comments.
I like this song:
ReplyDeletehere
I like it too, Aspie.
ReplyDeleteNothing is REAL!
ReplyDeleteIs it that time of the month for you, Medusa?
ReplyDeleteExistential crisis time, I mean, of course.
If there isn't a mess you were not busy enough, go try again. This time take off your trousers.
ReplyDeleteanother one:
ReplyDeletesend her my love
Medusa, this might be of help.
ReplyDeleteI was just testing.
ReplyDeleteBut that's the best website ever made.
I find it odd that Medusa popped up when Nick Cave popped up in my play list. Sort of like what's his name always hearing hip hop when UKan rolls in.
ReplyDeleteDo you have corn rows, UKan? A grill? Do you like the booty of fat white women?
Bouncy bounce and wiggley woo.
Maybe I should go buy those smokes now...
No one, you made me smile.
ReplyDelete^
ReplyDeleteI had to wipe the spittle off my screen from laughing.
So easily entertained...
That warms my heart, Post. Mission accomplished <3
ReplyDeletebunch of gaylord simpletons led by the 'path
ReplyDeletelol Aspie.
ReplyDeleteNotable, you've evaded my question but that's ok darling.
Darling?
ReplyDeletei have a feeling even "darling" won't bring an answer to that question.
ReplyDeletelol, is that too over-familiar?
ReplyDeletei always talk like that.
it's all in the tone as opposed to the word itself. doesn't work online obviously.
one of my favorite metallica songs:
ReplyDeletehere</a.
sorry
ReplyDeleteit's here.
keep us guessing, NP. :) otherwise the mystery is lost.
ReplyDeleteAfter spending an excessive amount of time in the American South, saying things like darlin', dear and hun don't mean lovey dovey imagery to me. I have to be careful where I am now, as some women find it suggestive.
ReplyDeleteBut that's rather poor context, as we are clearly lovers. <3
My actual precise age is apparently an object of inquiry among multiple people. I think I'll keep it that way, my dear.
what is it about mystery? it can make me all feverish.
ReplyDeletemy guess is 2
ReplyDeleteit's okay, aspie. i have a feeling they'd invite you in too. :)
ReplyDeletei'm constantly saying babe, darling, sweetie to everyone. can't help myself. i use it sincerely, indifferently, or sarcastically.
ReplyDeletebut as you say, to you, it's always sincere.
my guess is thirties. hehe. i don't know.
that's another thing. i think some people might have an unconventional take on ageing. on the vanity level it matters to me, but i sort of feel outside of time too. seriously, i do. weird huh.
You were born when you were born. Why does it matter?
ReplyDeleteI like this metallica song:
ReplyDeleteTo live is to die
"outside of time." i think that about sums it up.
ReplyDeleteI mean, when you were born is something that you can't be held personally accountable for.
ReplyDeletei know Aerianne. it's not about that. just more like, outside pressure and biological clock. in those senses.
ReplyDeleteYes, biological considerations I get. But, I don't understand the mystique of not telling your age. I don't understand the outside pressure either.
ReplyDeleteoh, you were refering to Notable? sorry, i misunderstood.
ReplyDeleteyes, you have a point. it doesn't matter. i just ask cos for some reason i like having some handle on things.
he wants it to be a mystery, fine.
i like your music choices aspie. do you play an instrument yourself?
ReplyDeletesorry about my earlier comment, aspie. usually when there's a jab on this site, it's about establishing territory. but that doesn't seem to be the case with you. it was rude.
ReplyDeletei think the mystery about people's age is fun sometimes. it's kind of the hard-to-pin-down quality that socio's have.
oops. interrupted conversation. will go now. :D
ReplyDeleteanon. it's for everyone.
ReplyDeleteright. i'm off to bed. bye bye.
thanks not me, i fool around
ReplyDeletesorry, meant notme
ReplyDeleteits ok anon 11:43 pm
ReplyDeleteAerianne, a lot of people just want a baseline to measure you by. To help, round out their mental image of you, if you will.
ReplyDeleteMental Images are fun.
Hmmm... All that piss, sweat, spittle, body odours and bodily fluids being splashed all over here.. Marking the sexual territory night? The Brits are definitely leading here!
ReplyDeleteAt least they're not giving away their special blankets.
ReplyDelete...and the rest here are all prudes image of that..
ReplyDeleteOn a more serious note, doesn't the days of verbalizing almost anything sexual, particularly by the relevant that is now upon us, cloud things even more? Having to navigate through the expanding social minefield of fake or real sexual openness hasn't decreased the stigma but has instead internalized it.. making plausible deniability the valued and even essential survival skill for the lucky or unlucky individual in sexual interactions these days.
lss; To quote SexSpear; Saying too much or too little ~ that is the question..
..the not everybody is charmed by a socio image of Ukan losing his best exployee. Just out of curiousity Ukan, what's your smart employee turnover rate not counting those you have personal relations with or those who have no other choice?
ReplyDeleteOh I missed a fun night! Oh well. I use "Darling" and the like all the time. It's part of my folksy charm.
ReplyDeleteI guess I'm sort of with TNP here. For me sex is about making the other person feel a connection to me, but I do feel superior at not being caught up in the hormones of it all. I prefer other acts to intercourse as well, so I can appreciate his enjoyment better.
i <3 NP
ReplyDeleteThe trait of not "getting" jokes or small talk is so goddamn spot on it leaves me reeling! My ex, the biggest sociopath the world has ever known, has that.
ReplyDeleteWhen I first met him, the first night we spent together, I was a bit troubled by his NOT getting anything I said. Whatever little joke I made or little off the cuff statement I made, he just was reading it all wrong. Like way over seriously. I figured it was because he was not comfortable with me yet. But now I see it entirely in a whole new light!
“The universe we observe has precisely the properties we should expect if there is, at bottom, no design, no purpose, no evil, no good, nothing but blind, pitiless indifference.” - This is indeed a great quote from Charles Darwin.
ReplyDeleteCharles Darwin really made science a great controversy to mankind.
ReplyDeleteThis is my favorite quote from Charles Darwin.
ReplyDeletereruns really putting a damper on my 1st game
ReplyDeleteIs that really so? Then why is it that if the Earth were a mere
ReplyDelete50miles closer to the Sun, or a mere 50 miles further from the
Sun then no life could exist on it at all?
If life is so common and evolved everywhere, where is the evidence?
Where are the transitional fossils? Not a trace of evidence that one
kind of animal can turn into another type of animal!
So so called "proofs" of evolution have ALL been exposed as frauds!
The transatory "animal" depictions of the human fetus have been
exposed as fake. The black wings on the butterfly were glued on.
Religious folk fanitical? The people who espouse evolution or JUST
as fanitical!
What are the calculated chances that life can come from death?
!0 to the 415th billion power! The next time you throw a male
cadaver on top of a female cadaver tell me what you end up with in 9
mounths. Not even a baby cadaver!
I was just wondering this morning how loving my sociopath is different than loving a computer simulation or an inanimate object. If course its completely different but not in every way compared to loving a NT who doesn't deconstruct every loving moment with some cold intention. I can love in a way that makes me feel not alone, not sure socio's get there anymore than blind people can appreciate a painting they are standing in front of. Maybe the helen keller treatment can bridge that separation and socios while believe that merging and connection is real even if they can't feel it. Perhaps flashes of feeling it too are possible? Am I getting this wrong?
ReplyDeleteMaybe you should stick to using condoms until you get it figured out.
DeleteMelissaR
All problems are just memories playing in the subconscious, and those can be erased. A memory is a PROBLEM. A problem is a MEMORY.
DeleteAny one who uses the term "oh sweat" is not going to mean much to me.
DeleteI'll eat this one MelissaR. I lied anyway, the reference to "my sociopath" was a lie so sociopaths reading this might take it more seriously. Actually I should have taken much more time to write what I meant to write. This is bullshit and I know it. The intended ideas wasn't really, sorry if this insulted anyone. I'll stick to trolling.
DeleteOn sweat....when women like the smell of a particular man's sweat, it's their endorphins that they are attracted to. This endorphin attraction is a signal (to women) they a potential mate has a compatible immune system. In order for mammals to produce the most healthy and strong offspring possible, both parents must have compatible immune systems...survival of the fittest.
ReplyDeleteP.S. Despite how much I like the smell of a man, clean sheets are very important!
MelissaR
Do you really want the kittens back?
ReplyDelete“If we can accept that we are the sum total of all past thoughts, emotions, words, deeds and actions and that our present lives and choices are colored or shaded by this memory bank of the past, then we begin to see how a process of correcting or setting aright can change our lives, our families and our society.”
ReplyDeleteMorrnah Nalamaku Simeona
I care because you do.
ReplyDeleteHappy New
ReplyDeleteGREATEST FILM ABOUT SOCIOPATHS: "THE INCIDENT" (1967).
ReplyDeleteA BIT DATED BY TODAY'S STANDARDS, BUT UNDOUBTEDLY
THE GREATEST DIPICTION OF SOCIOPATHS ON FILM!
I like you, Carlos.
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I will let someone come over to my house and poor out their emotions even though it makes no sense to me. I will give them food and drink. I pay attention as much as I can, asking myself what is going on in me that is creating this? But then after they leave I don't care anymore cuz I thought we were done.
ReplyDeleteAnd maybe the best thing I can do is leave you alone.
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